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2012

2012-01-01T12:17:00.002+08:00

First of all, Happy 2012 to readers!

It's a new year, a new chapter, a new beginning, a new life.

I believe everyone has a great new year eve celebration right? Hehe! But I was so pity..Hmmm, not to say pity, it was my choice what. Final falls on 29th Dec 2011, and until 11st Jan 2012. How do I have the mood to go out? Haha!

First day of 2012, it gonna be my study day again. It's 'Foreign Exchange'! The worst subject that I ever seen! (so far, until now la~maybe there will be even worst subjects are waiting for me =P)

4 days time to do revision. I shall not let these 4 days to fly away and I study nothing like year 1 sem 3 'Principle of Investment', it killed me!

Hmm...my last wish in 2011 was 4A1A- in year 2 sem 2. Haha! A little bit ridiculous and unattainable. Maybe the wish should be 4A1B+ instead of 4A1A- XP

So, I shall study hard hard hard in order to come true my wish!

As a student, this is my responsible. And get good result is always what I wish and want. Other than that, I step into 20 already!!! Oh NO~I have nothing yet! No outstanding studies, no potential job, no money, no colourful life, no good friendship, and lastly, I am still single! ><

How many decades would you have? I've gone through 2 decades and still have nothing. OMG! What had I do in the past 2 decades uhh? Fail~! Lol.

Ok, saja. I just spamming around. Haha! It's time back to do my revision or else A- will never belong to me! Hehe! See ya~

Happy 2012!

Post on 1st Jan

1215

I am emo

2011-12-21T10:09:00.003+08:00

I am a weird person. I am an emo person.

I don't know how to describe myself.

Sometime I even hate myself. My life is colourless, meaningless and hopeless.

I saw my friends and strangers surrounding me are so happy with their life. I believe everyone has his/her own problems and difficulties. But they can live happily. And I? NO!

My friend asked me that why are all my posts so sad, why not I write something fun and share my happiness. What could I answer? I don't happy! How to write something happy?

My life is colourless. Attend classes, back home, ... It's a routine, a fixed routine of my life. It will never goes against the 'plan'.

Seriously I cannot blame about my life because I choose to! I am so closeness to specific things. 'Careful calculation and strict budgeting' can only describe myself. Maybe I not come from a rich family and I understand how the money come from. I work part time to earn extra money as my parent are having low salary. That's why, I understand it is very hard to earn money if I don't have a good job. In order to have a good job, I understand I should have a good qualification. In order to have a good qualification, I understand I should have good result. ... It is a long and related relationship here. Why I always think so far away? From work to study...~.~' It makes me suffer!

Ok, back to the topic. How to happy? I don't know. What I know and I can do now is follow my routine. Just follow it. It will show the way I should go at the end. What a hopeless life!

In short, I should concentrate on the coming final examination. I hope to get higher result! I know it has a very very low probability because GPA 3.9 is my limit, I cannot achieve higher. Hence, I won't be greedy. I just hope to maintain my CGPA at distinction.

Before I'm off, I wish to redeem my 19th birthday wish since I didn't make any wish during the short celebration. I hope it is work! because these wishes are so important to me.

1. I wish my result can maintain at my desired level.

2. I wish I can get his news.

Post on 21st Dec

1010

Finally~

2011-11-13T12:41:00.001+08:00

I have been waiting for so long time to get full mark. Haha. And finally now, I got full mark! <3

I always lack of some exam luck and hence I always can't get full mark. Although it was considered quite good, just less 1 mark, 2 marks or 3 marks, there was always happens that I made some silly mistake and I've been waiting for the satisfaction for so so so long time.

People always say those score full for law subject is a crazy person, good in memorising, a nerd. But what can I argue here is that I did memorise it but I 'pick' to memorise! My answer is not bulat-bulat from the notes!!

Full mark for 'Investment Industry Law' does not mean that I am good in memorising. Instead, I hate to memorise. If I said I never memorise, it was fake! I am telling lie. Lol. I don't believe one can score full or high mark without memorise a single word.

'Understand it before remember it', this is my way of study. I found that after I understand a thing, that is much more easier to remember it. Thus, I always study at least twice before going to exam. First round is for basic understanding. Second round is to remember it. If I still not able to remember it, then only I will memorise it. Although I choose to memorise, it is easier to memorise after I understand it. This 'memorise' is very different from 'blindly memorise'.

I am waiting for some higher achievement in my academic =)

The best achievement I ever got now was full mark in my Macroeconomic coursework. That was really really amazing! Hahaha. After that, I didn't get any achievement already, until now T.T

It is getting harder and harder for me to achieve higher achievement. sigh~

I just hope and pray for my CGPA can maintain 3.85 or above. This is my final target! Gambateh! ^^

Post on 13rd Nov

1320

心理不平衡

2011-11-05T22:35:00.004+08:00

一段时间没上来了，我又回来啦～

我很少在这里分享开心的事，因为不善于沟通的我，常常上来这里通过文字抒发藏在内心不为人知的情绪 ^^

其实有好几次都想来写写自己的心情，可是往往碍于时间关系而把一些不开心的事往里面吞。

就好像昨天，妈妈竟然叫我自己坐巴士从KL回都不愿为要考试的我提早回！我太失望了！

她竟然说出这种话！我会记住的！

要是让我昨天上来，一定会写很多很多很难听的话，哈哈！

幸好，我的气来的快，去的快。

现在，没事啦～

还有今天，考了Leo Test，运气欠佳的我再次考到49/50的成绩 =(

很不幸的是，这次总共有4个人考获同样的分数。

还能怎样呢？就临时出5道问题咯～

我竟然5道都不会！因为这5道题都不是在考试范围内，而是临时出的。

当时心理很不平衡，真的有点想讲脏话！（不是有点，而是已经讲了 =P）

是我忽略少师，所以5道问题都不会回答。

自己活该！

算了，反正不重要！

我已做好自己的本分，也凭自己的努力和付出考到49/50的成绩。

早上才读，并且没有作弊，也算对得起良心了！ =)

对不起，我真的不喜欢作弊，因为我不想听别人的闲言闲语。

或许我就是自私。

所以，对不起，如果我没帮到你。

最后，想对看这篇文章的人说，我没有要说什么，只是很单纯地抒发自己的不平衡。

请勿扭曲我的意思！谢谢！

笔于2011年11月5日

2235

more serious

2011-09-28T10:11:00.004+08:00

It's day 6 today.

Why am I still not yet recover?

Why am I getting more and more bubbles instead of getting lesser n lesser?

Damn!!! When can I recover???!!

The bubbles on my face and thigh are getting more and more bigger and pain!!

I just realized the bubble on my face has some sort of fluid, yellowish fluid. OMG!

Please, be kind to me~ T_T

Besides, my eye problem came again!

It's pain!! I can see a so-called bacteria is sucking my blood!!!

Besides this bacteria, my eye is swelled too.

Gosh! When can I get normal???

Post on 28th Sept

1010

一波未平，一波又起

2011-09-24T22:56:00.001+08:00

昨天，真的有如标题说的那么糟糕，‘一波未平，一波又起’。

虽然知道一个人一生中会出水痘一次，但是万万没想到会真的发生在我身上。

之前，当身边的朋友出水痘时，我都会很乐观地说听天由命，要来就来，反正总要出一次嘛～

现在，终于出了。我却乐观不起来。

为什么在这个时候出？我要去上课，我要出席活动。

我不是位书虫，也不爱读书，我只是为成绩打拼，并不是我怕输，而是我为将来打算。

我真的不想拿病假，也不想缺席任何一堂课。我怕我会追不上。我不要成绩退步。

今天，PMO举办了我有兴趣的活动，晚上的Leo Cabinet Installation也颇有兴趣。我甚至还已经打算交通和衣着了。最终，什么都没了。呆在家里。

第一波，当然是出水痘。接下来的第二波，实在是心痛极了。

晚上睡前，发现手机出现一通未接电话，是个不知名的+8813131349。

我就奇怪。而且我竟然没听到电话有响过呀！

我害怕是他！

就在好奇心和害怕的驱使之下，不管了，我拨打了这通电话。

第一通，不通。

第二通，通了，类似客户服务的人说一大堆话。

才听了几秒就觉得不对劲，莫名其妙，就赶快挂了。

即，通话报告显示花了RM12.50！！！

王八蛋！！！无端端亏了RM12.50！！

笔于2011年9月24日

2255

Am I greedy?

2011-07-05T21:26:00.004+08:00

People say my result is good. People say my performance is good. People are envying me. People are asking me not to humble. People are blaming me hypocritical.

Well, first of all, I would like to thank to those who praising me.

But why I still unhappy with that? I'm disappointed with that.

I shouldn't get this result/marks, I'd wasted the mark which is belong to me. ='(

Am I greedy?

I don't think so. I just want to improve myself and get better!

I still satisfy with that though I'm not so happy with that. I would say, this is my standard and level. I'd tried. Why I would miss the marks, I don't know...it is just, out of my expectation but in the range of my target, seem contradictory uhh..haha @@

___Saja spamming___

Post on 5th July
2140

Lost my way

2011-06-13T21:20:00.003+08:00

Now, year 2 semester 1, I am so depravation! I cannot tolerate myself with this damn stupid fu*king situation!!! I am losing my way T_T

How am I suppose to describe my feeling now? This feeling is swallowing me and engulfing me day by day!!! Arghhhhh!~~~~~

How to express myself?!?! I HATE myself so much!

Why I cannot concentrate during the lectures and tutorials even though I'd told myself to do that?!

Why I don't know what are lecturers and tutors talking about?!

Why is my brain cannot work out on it?!

I am so scared! How am I going to take the tests and exam as well? How am I going to achieve my target?

I feel so frustrated that everyday attend lectures and tutorials without gaining any knowledge! How to describe uh? some sort like attend blindly, totally get no any point from the class, ...

Why I become like this? Ish!! Damn!! Fu*k!! @#$%&

No word can describe my feeling now.

Why is this semester so terrible?! Total 6 subjects are going to study, the MAIN problem is that at least 3 subjects are horrible subjects! How to study?!?!

English for Business-so far so good as compared to other subjects
Financial Accounting-so far so good as compared to other subjects
Ethics for Business-A LOT of things to memories, too LIFELESS subject
Money and Capital Markets-frighten by Investment last sem
Economic Statistic-hate the Indian slang so much
Basic Taxation-the lecture is so 'beh'

See~4 out of 6 subjects are waiting to 'die', how to control myself to LOVE them?

Please~~~~DO NOT continue like this! Wake up please! I got no any chance and excuse to fall! People are watching me to fall, I CANNOT make their wishes come true!!!

I decide to study, to do my revision EVERYDAY! No more relax and rest in my dictionary! I don't need anymore, the only thing I need the most is COFFEE!

Post on 13rd June
2215

Semester 4

2011-05-08T13:49:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow (9th May) will be started semester 4. I got a terrible timetable!! =.=

The earliest class started to move forward this semester, which is start from 8.30am instead of 9am. Luckily there is Farlim bus service and I can take Farlim bus to reach college before 8.30am.

The latest class I got in this semster is 5.30pm. It isn't the latest class I ever had, I had finished class at 6pm in the first semester, but that time was my dad fetch me and my friend back. This time different. My dad changed job already. Although he finish work at 5pm, he just can fetch one person as he ride bike to work.

Can I so selfish to leave my friend wait 6pm college bus to Komtar and take rapid bus back home alone?

What if I accompany her? wait for 6pm bus and take rapid bus back home together. But will be lateeeee to home ='(

I believe that it is a tough semester. Yet, I must gambateh! I don't allow my CGPA drop again, anymore, no more!

I ever thought that I wanna get my CGPA higher and higher, like a chinese proverb says, ''步步高升''. I took it too easy since I had improved in semester 2. I too relax. That's my fault.

No more this confidence! Seriously!

I hope to get higher CGPA in this coming challenging semester! Good luck! =)

Post on 8th May
1408

Busy days

2011-05-02T23:50:00.002+08:00

My result drops...sob sob...
Although not much, still sad...
Still, gonna thanks Milk God this weekend, at least my CGPA still 3.8 above..

After got to know my result of Semester 3 on 29th April, I brought my sadness mood to work on the next day at Prangin Mall Cathay Cineplex.

Fist day, not bad.
But I didn't know that I need to sale Sim pack >.<
It went worse on the next day, and the last day.
I learnt a word, rookie.
I'm rookie.
A rookie can do nothing.
Especially I look so fierce and unfriendly.
Omg!

So far so good la...everything still fine in these few days. Thanks God! I finished my job!
Long time didn't stand for more than 6 hours already, my leg...~~~
=DDDD

Gambateh! I gonna do better in the next coming semester, I want to catch uppp!

Post on 3rd May
0012

My First HP

2011-04-19T23:58:00.002+08:00

Finally I bought Sony Ericsson X8 on last Saturday.
This is the FIRST HP that I bought.
I never buy HP, do you guys believe?
=DDDD
It's true!~

I was using my mum's HP since I form 3.
I just ever used 2 lousy phone...until now, I bought x8.

I just bought AP for RM600.
I thought this price was okay, but I was wrong! ==
Everyone told me that it was expensive
cold water was pouring to me, over my body ='(

Anyway, it was past.
No more next time!

I don't even know how to use this phone.
You guys feel funny or not? Lol.
I'm super damn stupid.
I'm super damn outdated.
I never used such phone.
NEVER, EVER.
such phone means...?
A touch screen phone? A 3G phone? A wifi phone?
Lol.
I just like a girl who came from the futhest village!
I'm so mad with my stupidness!

Post on 20th April
1210

wishes ;))

2011-04-03T11:53:00.003+08:00

很久没上来了

开始懒惰了

大考又要到了

开始害怕了

担心成绩了

唉~

Investment lecturer told us about 'improvement',
Let's say, TARC and KDU
TARC has 1000 students currently and KDU has 500 students currently.
Next year, TARC has improved to 1200 students and KDU has improved to 1000 students.
This means that TARC has just improved 20% while KDU has improved 100% !

是不是我上个学期进步太多了？令我想在这学期再跟进一步的话很难？早知道就慢慢进步，不要冲得太快！哈哈哈哈哈~
这是我的歪理！不必理会！呵呵呵~

Back to the topic,
I can tolerate my result drop, but don't too much la~haha

God, I make a wish, next week will be started final exam, hope that I able to maintain my result, the worst, at least with CGPA 3.6 or else I will not be able to catch up anymore. Thank you!

Post on 3rd April
1215

Lost Phone

2011-03-09T18:12:00.002+08:00

Readers, so sorry!
Please skip this post as I am not going to use short form for those rude words.

Damn fucking today!!! I never expected this thing would happen on me! I lost my mobile phone! Damn it. I never ever so BAD luck! I experienced it today!

I just reloaded today, inside the mobile phone got so much credit!!! RM50++!!! What the fuck!!!

I dislike to put mobile phone in bad as I know that it's quite dangerous. BUT just today! I 'saja' wanted to put in the bag instead of put in my pocket.

I think it was not lost in 1st Avenue (p/s: I guess...). If I dropped it, I would realise as my mobile phone is quite big and heavy, definitely hear some sound if really dropped it. After that, I went to wait bus at bus station in front Prangin Mall.

When 203 come, many people come forward. It was crowded! I guess my mobile phone is lost at that moment. Kanasai!!!

I'm out of control!!! My fire can't extinguish!!!

Where the hell to get a mobile phone? My dad is unemployed again! Now, I lost phone. Why so many thing happen to me?!?!

I am planning to get a new one before I go to KL for advanced diploma. Now??? Should I buy now? Or buy before go to KL?

2012, If you're real, please come faster! I don't want to wait anymore!!
I'm fucking hopeless!!!

Post on 9th March
1858

SOJU

2011-03-07T20:34:00.005+08:00

First time been to Soju..
Hmm..I think should be correct it..

First time been to club!

I should admin that
I'm outdated
>.<

Prince Subaidah Aikra Andy Wah,
shaking, shaking, shaking
He keep on shaking his body! XD

Elisa too^^

Vanessa and Sky Love started to shake after few cups of Scotch Whiskey.
HAHA.

That night, I felt abit dizzy...
really lousy me! >.<''

Didn't know whether I drink alcohol with empty stomach
or
I'm too lousy,
my stomach not feeling well...

I think
I won't be addicted to clubbing.
LOL
So far still okay for me.
Nothing special.=]

Post on 7th March
2130

超级大倒霉的一天

2011-02-23T18:29:00.002+08:00

一大清早，就被婆婆骂，就有预感今天将会是一个很倒霉的一天。果然，印证了！

早上，婆婆问我塑料袋上‘Kapitan’是什么意思。我看了看，我从没看过这个字吖，就跟婆婆说不知道。岂知，婆婆就骂，说我读到几十年书了居然连一个字也不知道，还浪费钱去读大学。
我听后，非常非常的生气，立即反驳我又不是读大学，就是没看过这个字。
这时，爱管闲事的伯伯要他安静是不可能的了。他加入进来这个充满着火药味的对话，说了那些我完全听不进出的话，‘读到这么大还不会，等哥哥醒了才问哥哥，什么什么的’。
算！我不想吵！

婆婆再拿了一个喷雾罐问我是洗什么的。写着‘toilet’，这个很明显，当然我就知道了。但是我实在气得不得了，所以就说‘洗厕所的，我很笨的，不要相信我！’
接着的事情，就是婆婆的嘴巴一直念，念，念... ....

一点放学后，坐巴士到大众银行准备去交学费。过后，因为顾客少，所以我就顺道做一张提款卡，反正下个星期三妈妈也是要带我去做。

我错了！我不应该做的。

顾客询问中心的那位小姐真的服务超级‘周到及亲切’。
是不是我接触外界太少？
原来那位小姐是不需要向我说明一切的，就直接给我填资料，什么话都没说。
我还以为她是哑巴呢，我想应该是我想太多了，现金的社会已经没有这种服务了，原来是不需要向我交代的吧~ **讽刺着**

过后，等着Pin number。有年纪的那位小姐交给我银行簿子和pin number后，交代我去换密码后，我就可以走了。

应该是我的错啦~是我太笨~居然不知道原来是要签名的~

走路去Prangin Mall的巴士站，心里还在想‘怎么这么衰啊？所有巴士好像走过了，又要等下一班的巴士了，不懂又要等到几时了。

等着等着，电话响了。不知明的号码，原来是大众银行拨来的。
‘刚才忘了给你签名，对不起，几时有空来签呢？明天可以吗？’

妈的！以为我的时间是为你而排的吖？要是我这样有空的话，我需要这样狼狈吗？
算了，压住气，走回去签~

去到那边，那副完全没一点歉意兼诚意的那位老小姐拿了一份文件给我签后，就叫我回了。
让我走这么远的路，就是为了她忘记给我签名的过失，而且才一个！

我真的气到......说不上话！

共走了三次！！！
岂有此理！！！

就知道一大清早被婆婆骂注定会衰的！！！

笔于2010年2月23日
1923

又是一个忧伤的文章

2011-02-19T15:31:00.003+08:00

好景总是不常在

刚刚为了学业而开心，很快地，又为了学业而烦忧。
为什么不能让我开开心心的呢？

人家说‘快乐的时光是短暂的’，是正确的。
才开心了几天就开学了。
开开心心地开学，谁知又伤伤心心地上学。

一个学期比一个学期难。
难道真的要一个学期比一个学期难过和忧愁？

Finance好难啊~Investment也好难啊~
终于找到比IT还要难得东西了！

老实讲，不算很难，因为都是基本理论而已。
只是我不明白就糟糕了！！！

这次只有7个星期的时间，就要大考了！
相信7个星期一眨眼就过去了。
怎么办？？？
我很担心~~~

每次一上课就有很多很多事烦忧，
明知道我就是属于比较容易紧张担忧和一直往负面方向想的嘛。

啊~~~~~~~
很压力！！！

笔于2011年2月19日
1630

Result of 2nd semester

2011-02-10T18:31:00.002+08:00

I never thought something would happen has happened. SUPER surprise!!!
I scored better result than previous semester XD
Unbelievable~
I thought I would get worse result than last semester.
I already happy with the result of last semester, never expect would score better,
and this semester is harder
got IT, IOM
which I got no much confident.
During the final for Macroecons,
there was no enough time for me to answer the last essay question.
I was so worry my result.

My 1st birthday wish had achieved^^
Thanks a lot a lot!!!
I appreciate it!

I did it!
I able to get GPA 3.9 and CGPA 3.84
I had improved!~last semester just got 3.79 =)
Although not improve a lot, I satisfy! Hahaha! *wink*wink*

Wonder how my parent think...I not yet tell them.
I know, they will not be so happy as me,
they'll just smile, I guess.

For now,
my sister is the only people knew my result, I mean in my family.
She also did not have much expression, didn't even congratulate me >.<
Disappointed~

I gonna study harder and smarter,
try my BEST to maintain the result.
Hope one day I'll score as good as my brother.

Pals, thanks for your wishes!
I appreciate it^^

For those who look down on me,
please re-measure your mind!

Finally,
I remember what I had promised, which is
eat at City Bayview if I scored better than previous semester.
But...
problem has occurred.
Argh, my god~I don't have car~
I cannot go there myself,
my parent won't eat at there, they complain expensive >.<

want to practice this promise is so difficult ==
sigh~
want to be a trustworthy person is also so difficult ==
hopeless~

Post on 10th Feb
1925

A Grieve Post

2011-01-28T13:33:00.004+08:00

Skip this post if you feel uncomfortable.
I just need to vent seriously.

Why can everyone just care about my little sister?
She isn't young anymore,
she is 11th now!
She got the ability to responsible for her own little stuff, like wash her own school shoe.

Why my mother insists to clean up her school shoe for her?
Okay, last time she said she still young and couldn't wash her white school shoe clean. Fine!
But, now? Why still?
She has been washed her school shoe until NOW.

Actually I already used to it. I don't care anymore.
I don't care when I started to wash school shoe my own,
I don't care what age was I, ...
I just let it be.
Let my mother be my young little sister's maid..
Anyway, my mother is willing, she loves to do for her.
So I just don't bother.

But, please DON'T step in my range and try to challenge my patience!

My grandma was disagree what my mother did to my sister, last time.
She said this just pampered her.
But now?
So irony!
Now grandma ask me to wash for her! WTH!

'Don't wait until mum come back, wash for her when you bathing.''
Wow...~
Sound harmony uh..mother and daugther-in-law. HA!

Tell me the reason why I should wash for her?
Why I should 'help' you all to pampered her?
And who pampered me?

Why you guys just can't let her wash by herself?
I had washed twice in this week.
First time, I didn't say anything. I washed for her when I bathing.
Second time, I just forgot to wash and I realised it after I finished bathing.
Grandma scolded me and asked me to wash it or else no need to take lunch.
Damn it. What kind of family I born in? Gosh!

Why you guys just like to pampered her like this?
Isn't wash school shoe a simple stuff even though to a 11-year-old kid?
Mum is willing to do for her everything.
Wash her school shoe, coat her school shoe, adjust the water heater before she goes to bath, ladle rice for her before she come to eat, etc.

I just don't understand, really!
Mum please follow her when she get married. She needs you!

Post on 28th Jan
1457

Nice memories

2011-01-18T12:47:00.007+08:00

I know it's over a long time, yet I wish to post it! Haha.
Pei Yong FISRT time celebrate my birthday with me!
Besides my mum FIRST time buy pizza for me and my sister FIRST time make a birthday card for me, only friends celebrate my birthday is you guys! ^^
Thanks to Yong, Jo Lynn, Karine, Poh Sin and
Bell.

Although it is belated, I am happy and appreciated.
On 18th December (Saturday) , going to Queensbay with Karine and Poh Sin.
Oh gosh, first time take Karine's car. It is so scary. Yong, comparable to you! XD

Celebrate
my belated-birthday and Bell birthday in advance

Make a wish

Happy 18th birthday!

After that shopping at Queensbay.

Post on 18th Jan
1358

生活无趣

2010-12-23T17:01:00.004+08:00

最近的生活蛮无趣的。

这个星期开始，老爸开始做工了，不能来载我了。
也好的，至少找到新的工作，不必在家里一直被妈妈和婆婆念。
虽然听说老板很不好，至少做到新年后再作打算吧~
凡事都要忍！
没法，只好走路回。
其实是可以搭巴士回家的，但由于距离不远，搭了很不划算，再加上我龟毛的个性，十分不舍得花一令吉四十仙来搭巴士回家。
所以只好从发林麦当劳那里走路回家。
又不是走不起，就走吧~

最近也要大考了。
一月六号开始至十七号。
唉~
还没开始读书温习，不懂来得及吗呢，而且很多东西要读。。
IT就是我最头疼的一科，需要靠背来应付考试。
然则，事到如今
我还未有读书的心情来读书呢！
真糟糕！~
看在眼里，想在心里，
我是害怕的！我是担忧的！
眼看大考即将来临，而我什么都还未准备，心里压力万分！
我几时变得如此堕落？
一直告诉自己一定要考获好成绩，不可以退步来时时刻刻地提醒自己不可以输！
我不是输不起，而是不想输。
我要让老爸知道虽然我不像哥哥那么聪明，至少我的成绩可以让他感到欣慰！
我要让妈妈知道我的成绩也不错，至少不要一直忽视我的成绩！
我要让哥哥知道虽然我程度差他一大截，至少在外界是可以相比的！
我要让妹妹知道不单只是哥哥考获好成绩，至少我的成绩也不赖！
我要让那些瞧不起我的人知道，至少我不是那么的没用！
这是我对自己许下的承诺，对自己写下的挑战。
我不可以输！我不要输！
希望能像上个学期一样，至少考到还算满意的成绩吧！

最近也在问着Asia Height关于资源回收活动的细节。
懵懵懂懂地~唉~
希望能够顺利地完成吧~
至少不要太难看吧>.<
实在不想成为最没用的成员！

骆宜琳，你醒醒吧！只有你自己才能帮到你自己！不要再堕落下去了！上进点吧！

奖励
努力考完试后犒赏自己尽情地唱K和看电影！预计花费：RM20
成绩出炉后每差过上个学期的话就犒赏自己去City Bayview吃大餐！预计花费：RM60

笔于2010年12月23日
1802

射手女生

2010-12-18T21:35:00.002+08:00

射手女生可能永远也不会知道自己想要的是什么，但是她一直都很清楚，她不想要的是什么。

她总喜欢做幕后的看客，冷冷地，静静地看着一切，在她眼里，一切都在她的意料之中，她并不觉得有什么是新奇的，如果她表现得新奇，那是因为她觉得应该这样做。
她像一个看戏的人，永远置身事外。

你不要责怪她冷漠，这是她保护自己的唯一方式。
她像一只刺猬，随时竖起自己身上的刺，但她的刺不会伤人，她只是用来武装自己。

她不敢要太多的爱，她怕享受完爱之后，剩下的只是加倍的痛。所以当别人对她过度宠爱时，她不但不会欣喜，反而会惊惧地逃走，她不知道怎样回报别人对她的爱，如果你得到她的喜爱，那是因为她已经知道如何面对，如何回报了。

她追求那种君子之交淡如水的境界。

她懂得爱人，但她不习惯爱人，她知道爱往往伴随着恨，而恨，是太沉重的伤痛，也是太容易让人疲倦的感情。
她不想痛，也就懒得去恨，于是，为了防范恨与痛的到来，她只好选择不爱，即使爱，也是淡淡的，冷冷的。别怪她，她是真的不知道如何专注。

她有时也很虚伪。不要指责她，她之所以选择虚伪，那是你勉强她做她不愿做但又拒绝不了的事，她不习惯承诺，也不懂得拒绝，她最擅长的是难为自己。
她不想你难过，只好令自己难过。

她总是固执地认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，她将自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。

她老是担心自己的行为会让别人受到伤害。她不知道，受伤的其实是自己。
只是她不知道如何表现出来，她迷糊得像别人所认为的那样，将自己当成一个百毒不侵的人。

别以为她很洒脱，很多时候，她其实是放不下的，她比任何人都要敏感，都要细腻，但她不会让你知道，她明白，即使你知道了，也是无济于事。

她的心是把握不住的风，她渴望像风一样单纯而自由。

她不是不想平静，她只是找不到平静的理由，她一生都无法明确自己在人世要扮演的角色，她只有不停地寻求，寻求自己最终的目的。
如果她找到了，她会毫不犹豫地停下来，从此放弃心灵的漂泊。
很遗憾，她永远也不会满足，她的追求永不停止。
她的心再累，无法逼迫自己放弃梦想，梦想是她唯一的支撑点。

千万别让她失望。因为她学不会原谅，她非常渴求完美，虽然她知道世间没有绝对的完美，但，她有绝对追求完美的执着。
你若令她失望，她会不可挽回地离开，即使她的心在滴血，即使痛楚重得要压垮她的生命，她也绝不回头。
那个时候，你在她脸上所看到的，>是让人寒心的决绝。
即使她还在你的身边，她的心也早就离你十万八千里，你看不到她的恨，但是你会感受到比恨还让人痛苦的冷淡。
她的离开是心灵的离开。

她可以在前半分钟对你好得让你受宠若惊，也可以在后半钟冷漠得让你不可接受。
不要问她为什么这样善变，她也不知道。
当你看到她在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，千万不要迷惑，不管她看起来是多么的疯狂，她内心其实是冷静的，她比你们任何一个旁观者更知道如何处理快乐与悲伤，她只是习惯，也可以说是喜欢将一切都变得疯狂。
因为她觉得这是义务，也是权利，她是制造气氛的能手，她的一句俏皮话会让一切轻快起来，但她的一声叹息又会将一切都弄得很沉重。

她总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与忧郁。

她并不如你们看到的那么快乐，同样，也不如你们看到的那么忧伤，只是，她忧郁时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当她快乐时，忧郁又不肯轻易放过她。

在她的世界里，盛着的不是快乐的源泉，而是她不愿在人前滴下的泪水。
你看到的她，笑起来像一个孩子，你有时会认为她天真得像是童话里走出来的天使。
但是，你若有心，你会看到她沉静时脸上挥之不去的忧伤，还有她的眼底，竟那么凝重地积压着一种看破红尘的味道。

她只有在午夜无人的时候，才会完全地释放自己。
她不会在众目睽睽之下表露她的无助，她的彷徨，她的沧桑。
她心里的，是永远流不尽的泪。
你所看到的坚强，只是她在竭力掩饰的脆弱。

摘自‘面子书’

笔于2010年12月18日
2215

是我的问题吗？

2010-12-13T20:50:00.002+08:00

到底为什么？
我真的这么差劲吗？
为什么身边的朋友一个一个地远离我？

我真的这么难相处吗？
可是我觉得还好耶。。是我的幻觉吗？
我对得起天地良心呀~

看来是我的问题了！
到底是什么问题呢？
可以告诉我吗？

笔于2010年12月13日
2055

My 18th Birthday Wishes

2010-12-11T12:06:00.002+08:00

First of all, approve me to say
'Happy birthday to myself!!!'

Finally, I am 18th years old! It's been so long to wait for this day.

Give me 3 wishes please~
1. I wish to get good grades in my studies.
2. I wish every problem around me will be solved.
3. I wish that I can associate well with those around me since I have a bad inter-personal skills.

Thank you!

Post on 11th Dec
1212

Gambateh!

2010-11-30T16:04:00.003+08:00

My daddy is officially unemployed now. My mummy is officially be the one who support us now. My family is officially enter into a huge trouble now.

Chinese New Year is approaching. Daddy said do not worry about this coming new year. It will be as usual as previous, e.g. distribute angpau, eat steamboat, etc. But the next Chinese New Year will be affected, might not as easy relax as now. Hopefully will get a average paid job as soon as possible.

This incident make me feel guilty. I some more got some costly plans in my mind such as buy new clothes, shoes, contact lens, dye hair and reborn hair. >.<
However, now I think I must adjust them. I have to cut cost so that I will not feel guitly. Now, I will feel guitly even though just eat a burger which cost me RM3. OMG!

I try my best to cut as much cost as I can. Due to the way I spend money, which is save from other side exactly or above how much I spent, I think there will not be a problem. The major problem is my stomach. No worries, I will make it as flexible as I can.

I will be strong!
I will not fall.
I want to turn over all these bad things happened now in the future!
Now I suffer for money, I want to earn as much money as I can in the future!
Now I suffer for hunger, I want to eat a lot of delicious food in the future!
Now I suffer for window shopping, I want to buy as many branded as I can in the future!
Now I suffer for enjoyment, I want to enjoy as much creature comforts in the future!

Gambateh, Elyn!
You do not need anyone to support you, you must go through all the challenges in this reality world yourself! Although you're facing a lot of pressure and problems now, you have to go through this stage! Do not let other got any chance to look down on you!

Post on 30th Nov
1740

失业

2010-11-13T13:45:00.002+08:00

又传闻了！

老爸说现在工厂里的人纷纷都在讨论的话题莫过于工厂关闭的事情。

根据消息指出，工厂将在下个月关闭。

昨天妹妹也来告诉我，老爸说要去吉隆坡找工作做。

拜托！
是去吉隆坡投靠亲戚，而不是去找工呢！

唉~怎么我家会沦落到这个地步？
真可悲！

我的方面呢，也有不祥的预感。

我不清楚事情到底是怎么一回事，但是我的预感是不会有错的。
上次，司机问我明年是不是没有做工了，那时我就奇怪。佩慧姐不让司机再讲下去，就敷衍了他几句。我觉得我就快要失业了。 =(

从今天起至12月15日，我没有做工了，因为学校假期嘛，我也放假。好害怕突然接到电话通知我不必来做工了。T.T

今年真是个不祥年！
事事都碰壁！
希望我可以变聪明，然后把成绩考好，那么以后我就可以赚多一点钱。
可是这个学期我遇到瓶颈了，竟然遇到本人最烂的IT。我真是位电脑白痴！

笔于2010年11月13日
1440

钱

2010-11-05T21:08:00.004+08:00

家庭经济状况愈来愈糟糕了。说实在的，我还蛮担心。我不懂我该怎么办，只好一直很省吃俭用。昨天在学校买了一个汉堡包来吃。真的很好吃，这完全是Law of Diminishing Marginal Utility可以解释的。和朋友四个一起一边吃汉堡一边聊天。

聊到吃，在槟城我就省到如此，将来去了吉隆坡怎么办？那儿的东西更贵，那时我更舍不得吃。所以是不是该趁着现在吃得好一些呢？

我想我应该办不到吧~眼睁睁看着金钱一张一张地花出去实在心疼！也许我就是这样的一个人吧~俗语说：由俭入奢易，由奢入俭难。难道我是个特别的人吗？不是的，我不是，毕竟我也只是个普通人一个，跟大家没什么分别。只是我的状况与大家都不同。可能别人的生活比我好，可能别人比较舍得花钱，可能别人比较疼自己。

老爸的工厂好像快不行了。已有两个人离开到别间工厂去做工了。今年工厂都没什么工作做，目前的状况更惨。老爸每天下午四点半就放工，而且在工厂里也没什么工作可以做，大多数的时间都只是在坐和聊天。这两个星期更惨，三点半就放工。试问有谁是这样的？

听到老爸说，工厂可能会在明年倒闭。整整四十几岁人了，还要到那儿打工？人家都不要请啦~干脆一直做到工厂倒闭了再打算吧~婆婆就埋怨老爸不该做这份工，应该找别的工作来做。老爸却不要，一直说人老了又没有学问没有人要请了。

过后，听到老爸说做到工厂倒闭，然后去吉隆坡帮忙亲戚买东西。如果真的去吉隆坡做工，就不会一直回来了。我不懂该怎么办好。为什么家庭会搞到如此地步？感觉好可悲噢。

老爸是家庭里的重要支柱。虽然老妈有做工，但工钱很少。不算帮上什么大忙。

今年真是个不好的一年。总有很多不愉快的事情发生。例如：经济状况愈来愈差，从上学到现在一直出现很多烦恼和问题，最近又没了奖学金，等等。不如意事常八九，但是为什么是接踵而来？可以让我有喘气的空间吗？

新年快到了，也表示将花费一大笔钱。而现在是要花都不懂有没有钱花。真悲哀~哥哥好像不知道，所以一直打电话来要钱，说不够钱用。

上次，我还想过不做兼职了，但事实不得我如此。我必须做！否则经济更糟糕！我开始不敢乱花我的工钱了，一直收，收，收。要买任何东西都要想一想，就连要吃一个汉堡也要看天时地利人和，算清楚了才敢买。

老板的儿子上次问我，是不是工作上遇到什么事情。我说没有，很好。接着，他问为什么看我都不怎么开心。我愣了一下，他怎么看得出来。我说没有，没事。

我很不开心。可是我不懂该怎么办。真的很不开心！今年是我最不开心的一年！

朋友，你们可以说我现实，因为我不得不现实。你们可以说我计较，因为我不得不计较。你们可以说我吝啬，因为我不得不吝啬。

做人做到如此也真悲哀~

我对钱，甘拜下风！

笔于2010年11月5日
2215

Suck TM net

2010-10-31T17:02:00.002+08:00

I want to go to the project 'Service without border'. It is so meaningful project. I really want to go. But internet got problem. I couldn't surf internet from Saturday until today before I called to TM.

I missed the precious chance. T.T

Maybe this is the fate, the destiny. Lol.

Post on 31st Oct
1705

Pretending

2010-10-02T16:41:00.002+08:00

I become more and more emo lately. Think this and that, worry this and that, all nonsense, bullshit! Ishh!

Why I choose to trust you? I should not trust you. Why I choose to believe you? I should not believe you seriously. Why I choose to care about you? I should not care about you badly.

I want to believe you, however there is no way. The higher the expectations, the greater the disappointment, right?

Forgive my selfishness, I do not want to get hurt. I used to disguise myself under the shadow of fortitude. Actually I am not that strong. What did I do was just pretending. I was pretending that I am happy. I like to pretend. I choose to evade. LOL. What a lame excuse!

I am always trying to seek for security. Who can be trusted in this world?

Bla bla bla... ...
Readers, just ignore this post.
Sorry for wasting your time...
I am crazying >.<

Post on 1st Oct
1720

Result of first semester

2010-09-29T18:11:00.002+08:00

Finally...
result is released!
Fuyohh~
get not bad result for this examination
XD

Extremely surprise~
manage to get 4A1B
with CGPA 3.7++

Gonna thank Milk God this weekend~
Hahaha

I believe that first semester is the easiest
so i able to get good result.

By the way,
3.7+ ok only la,
not very good yet
>.<
My previous class rep got CGPA 3.95!!
That's my dream and unattainable result!!

Post on 29th Sept
1825

第二学期前夕

2010-09-26T11:36:00.003+08:00

明天就是第二个学期的开始，也是我最重要的生死期。

拿到了第二学期的时间表，感觉还可以。先按照着原本的时间表上课一个星期吧，若是想换的话再跟朋友商量。起码最早是9时上课，最迟是下午4.30 下课。听到哥哥说他早上8时有课，幸好槟城还没有开始，只在吉隆坡开始，否则我得更早醒来。如今我早三个小时醒来已经很可怜了，要是8时上课的政策在槟城分院实行，我就是超级超级可怜了。

开学后的第二天，也就是28号，我很担心。按照原理，我该去吉隆坡出席一个很重要的典礼，可是我没办法去。我想我应该会给他们一个很坏很坏的印象吧~
邀请函上说明我的出席是必定的，然而现在我没有去，真糟糕！实在害怕！

开学后的第三天，29号，是成绩出炉的日子！担心自己的成绩考得不理想。

总之，上课是我将会烦很多很多东西的时刻。常常问自己，别人能够开开心心，自由自在地去上课，为什么我却是烦恼重重呢？

笔于2010年9月26号
1155

准备迎战吧~

2010-09-18T17:31:00.003+08:00

放假了两个星期，还剩一个星期的假期。想必，也该收拾心情，准备上课的压力了吧~在面子书上看到了关于第二学期的学费的事，公布成绩的日期，等等。

又是该烦恼的时候了。上次拿到的那张支票已汇入银行，并且提出来还给了妈妈。爸爸说过第一学期的学费是妈妈借给我的，不是给我的。现在我该拿什么钱去交第二学期的学费呢?唉~

还以为在下个星期就能够知道成绩，原来还要等到开学后才能知道。真是叫人担心呢！说实在的，关于这次的考试，我真的没啥信心的。但是，我却得骗自己可以考获至少2.75，否则我就丢了奖学金。现在的我才知道原来哥哥是真的比我聪明很多很多！哥哥竟然可以维持住奖学金至毕业，而且不是2.75而已，而是至少3.85！对我而言，2.75已经是很困难的一件事了，更何况是3.85？而哥哥却做到了。他不单每次考试都考获3.9以上的成绩，而且还在毕业前考到第十五名。

这次的假期，哥哥从吉隆坡回来了。在这短短的两个星期内，我每天都在想如何放松自己，如何使我的假期过的更充实。但，哥哥呢？我已亲眼看过哥哥数次地温习他那本ACCA的书。也许这就是我与他的分别吧~

看来，我得加把劲，更更更努力才行！
琳，准备迎接挑战吧~加油！

笔于2010年9月18日
1830

健康亮红灯

2010-09-11T18:32:00.004+08:00

一向来，健康没什么大碍的我一直很好的。最多只是发发烧，感感冒，喉咙痛一痛，头也痛一痛，晕一晕，常年问题也只是咳嗽和嘴巴破。这些都是小病，没什么值得担忧的。

今年，我的健康好像亮红灯了。如果只是小病一场那没关系，至少我可以接受。但事实并非如此。这盏红灯一直停留在我的眼睛上。我的双眼，我最爱的双眼！一直以双眼引以为傲的我，这次无法再以双眼来引以为傲了。全身上下最满意的部位就是眼睛，为什么老天爷这么残忍要来毁掉它？为何？

五个月前，我的右眼长针眼。事后，一直被别人取笑。长针眼有错吗？长针眼一定是偷窥吗？虽然表面上我一副无所谓的模样，其实我也是介意的。为什么长针眼就一定要被人取笑？不服！挣扎了好久，终于等到针眼熟了，也破了，可是却留下了红红地伤疤。这时候的我开始觉得我的右眼毁了，不再像以前那样了。所以我也不戴隐形眼镜了，可恶的是戴眼镜又被人嘲笑老气。

原本以为没事了，留疤就留疤吧，终算雨过天晴了。好景不长在，一个月前，轮到我的左眼的时候了。由于人热，所以左眼又开始红肿了。乍看一下，黑眼珠旁长了一点小白点。去了诊所，医生说细菌在我眼珠旁滋长，如果这个细菌一直干扰的话，就要动手术了。现在先给我药来吃，看能否痊愈。按照医生的指示，吃药和滴眼药水。不久后果然痊愈了。实在感恩！

前天，我发现到类似的细菌好像又出现在我眼内了！真糟糕！这次不是长在眼珠旁，而是内眼皮，眨眼睛时有痛楚感。刚开始还没那么明显时，我还以为是针眼，因为人超热的。慢慢地发觉到不单只是痛，还好像越肿越大。白白的，真的很像上次那个细菌！怎么办？它又来干扰我了！我是不是真的需要动手术？

目前，我惟有再滴上次的那瓶眼药水，希望能够痊愈！

我没告诉任何人，除了我妹妹。我知道我其实是在担心。我真的在怕。要是真的需要动手术，我的睫毛真的彻彻底底的毁了！我不想种睫毛！

笔于2010年9月11日
1955

First project in GTM

2010-09-06T14:55:00.003+08:00

Wee...Finally got some contribution to GTM! Some time I think that I am a sleeping member over there since I am not active enough to participate in every projects and events. I worry that my big name will be stated at absent with aplogise over the 12 monthly secretary reports. It's so paiseh and not a good feeling for sure.

This was a first project I organised throughout my Leo life! I didn't bluff anyone, it's true. I never organised any project or activity since I joined Leo Club. This project include my effort, my tears and my time. Whatever, just ignore it. I just hope it could proceeds very smoothly.

Finally, thanks for those who donate $ ya, especially my friends, May San and Aaron. They were the only two friends would like to donate T.T

Post on 6th Sept
1518

我辛苦的学院生活

2010-08-30T16:02:00.003+08:00

好累~每天早出晚归，作息太正常了，生活反而有点无趣。现在的生活是我在未踏入学院生活之前从未想过的生活。有时想起来真的很无奈。

照理来说，学院生活应该会是很有趣的。可是我的学院生活却跟别人很不一样。每天早上要早上课时间前三个小时醒来，前两个小时出门去等巴士，拉曼的巴士在前一个小时才来。到了学院就再也出不来了，那里的食物很不好吃，但是又没办法出外吃。所以上了学院，我变得非常龟毛！由于每天搭巴士来回需花RM5.60(公共巴士RM4 +拉曼的巴士RM1.60)，所以要一天不化超过RM5是不可能的事。有史以来上课从未花超过RM5的我，实在倍感心疼以及不甘。所以想了一个妙招。把我的上课时间重新的排过一遍，把它变成一个星期只上课四天。

Monday 9am-11am Introduction to Accounting(L), 11am-1pm Microeconomics(L), 1.30pm-3.30pm Quantitative Studies(T)
Tuesday 9am-10.30am Introduction to Accounting(T), 10.30pm-12noon English , 1.30pm-3pm Microeconomics(T), 3pm-5pm QS(L)
Wednesday 9am-10am Hubungan Etnik(L), 11am-1pm Table Tennis(Co-cu), 4.30pm-6pm HE(T)
Thursday 9am-10.30am English

这样一来，我可以省不少。
星期一带面包去吃，在Accounting和Microeconomics交换时快快吃，然后忍到放学了。
星期二英文班后去食堂吃饭，RM2.60或RM2.80的饭，因为要顶到傍晚五点呢！
星期三最浪费时间，中间有四个小时空着呢！没办法，要顶到六点，所以又要吃饭。
星期四最好，根本不需要吃，等回家才吃。

至于巴士费呢，每天RM4，很心痛！所以早上去的时候给RM2，回时候我只给RM1.40。每天都过着提心吊担，害怕司机会发现我。唉~简直就不是一般人的生活！

老实说，上了学院我真的消瘦了点。不过没关系，在家里时我不会放过我喜欢的菜肴，尽量在家里把肚子喂饱。我也知道这样做对胃不好，可是要我看着钱从我手中渐渐的不见真的很心疼！我真的不习惯花钱。

话虽如此，我却把省下来的钱拿去娱乐消遣，比如说买衣服，鞋子，唱K，等等。我有一个习惯，那就是花出去的钱又要省回来！

大家多都说我很龟毛，不是节省而是吝啬。无所谓，我只是衡量得比别人精准。至少我又我的话前原则。 =)

无形间，这样就锻炼出我的毅力，试问有谁会有这种魔鬼般的毅力？

笔于2010年8月30日
1710

Final Exam

2010-08-19T23:49:00.002+08:00

Aaiiiyyaaa
Final Exam is approaching!!!

First day, Hubungan Etnik.
Oh my god!
Have to memorise so much...TT

I just studied Microecons, seriously.
I did not memories also, just simply study and try to understand it.
How to write essay if I don't memories some keywords?
sigh~

Quantitative Studies,
Don't know how to do Tutorial 8!

During exam week,
won't be going out anymore!
Just stay at home,
study, study and study!

Apologise to GTM!

Feel so stress!!!

Post on 19th Sept
2354

Finally get my cheque

2010-08-12T14:15:00.004+08:00

I have been waiting for such a long time.
Finally get the cheque.

Just one thousand ++.
Is it the fund for semester 1?
Or semester 2?

I asked the admin person who gave ne the cheque,
he said:' Don't know. Not clear. Ask Miss Ng n see.'
Seemed nobody him about this question. Hmm.

Well, I asked Miss Ng myself.
(Actually I was got force to ask her, just not so like her.)
Aiya!
Why her office always turn off the light?

Somebody told me that whenever she swtich off the light in her office, means that she is reating. Oh my god. Am I so bad luck? Something is up and forcing me to see her everytime she is resting..sigh~

Anyhow I must see her.
Few questions appeared in my mind.
1. Is the cheque for semester 1 or semester 2?
2. If it is for semester 1, why so little money only? / If it is for semester 2, where is the fund for semester 1?
3. When can get the next fund?

Post on 12rd Aug
1500

Hopeless, Speechless

2010-08-05T23:38:00.009+08:00

最近的运势好像又变差了! 怎么办? 糟糕了!

很不开心, 很无奈, 脑子里一直在想着有的没的东西, 事事都不顺心。

Hopeless! Speechless!

越来越多人进来我的科系, 搞到我的班越变越大班, 现在又有5个certificate的学生要进来, 整个班都快40个人了。最后校方决定要分两班。大家都要留在一样的班, 大家你争我夺的, 因为一班只要20个人。

我, 无话可说。
到底是我的错吗?
去到哪就被讨厌到哪, 去到哪都不开心到哪, 去到哪总会有人不喜欢我。
我很讨厌这种感觉!

我想进的班, 大家都要进。
我们四个人,
一个想进新的班, 另一个又要跟着的, 剩我们两个人, 不跟她们一起的话, 两个人很难跟其他人作战，做起事来很麻烦!

怎么办? 为什么我是个这样的人?
明明就是那些人抢我们的位子在先, 现在已变成他们的位子了, 我都已经让他们了, 他们还想怎样? 现在每天去上学都面对着一gang一gang的人, 很讨人厌耶!
我到底做错什么?

每天去学校都很不开心!

电脑又被我弄坏, 得到了电脑病毒。对电脑一窍不通的我根本不懂该怎么办。拿了cpu去让人修理, 回来时却取法上网。当然, 有被老爸骂, 说我只会玩不会修理。我怎么知道为什么在那儿能上网, 回来后却不能上网。这样也是我的错?还骂我笨, 一直把哥哥拿来跟我比较, 说以前哥哥会知道电脑那里坏, 哪里该修理什么的, 我什么都不会, 我最讨厌就是骂我的程度差哥哥很多很多, 至少差一半!岂有此理! 最后打电话去修理电脑那里还是问不倒, 问不懂。最后方法, 再拿cpu去那里。

知道为什么会不能上网吗? 妈的, 是老爸口中的那个好哥哥写错security key, 所以无法上网! 知道错怪我了吧~老爸竟然不说哥哥一句! 为什么总是那么不公平???

为什么我做什么事都不顺利? 都要遭人骂? 我真的那么令人讨厌吗? 我一直反复地问我自己, 我也变得很讨厌我自己!

此外, 觉得自己也很废, 很多与。大家都不喜欢我, 我真的那么糟吗?

我只想过个平凡的生活, 能吗?

突然好像辞掉少狮会里的职衔。觉得自己也使很废, 我不想让人说我霸着职衔啦~
一直缺席开会和活动的, 什么事都帮不上忙, 什么事都不知道, 像块石头一样。
其实我单纯地只想为社会服务。每次帮过人后心理总会很安慰，很有满足感。

有时, 我真的觉得很压力。
我不想让人看不起, 很想有一番作为。
我也是人啊!

偏偏看不起我的人却是去哦亲生老爸!
甚至我也很看轻自己!

呜呜~
真的很不开心... ...
Hopeless!

笔于2010年8月8日
1730

English II

2010-08-02T18:13:00.004+08:00

Wow~
Luckily I get B- for my journal writing!
I think Miss Thum will be telling us the method of calculate the total coursework mark.
Really really worry!
Don't know how much it pull on my CGPA.

*DON'T FAIL!*

Post on 2rd Aug
1815

English

2010-07-30T11:46:00.003+08:00

Boom!!!
Got shock from the result on Thursday.

My English short conversation got C+!
T.T

I admit that my English is not well, but why one of my friend who is worse than me managed to get a B?
WHY?
I wonder why!

On the short conversation that day, we were two in one group. PS and I were in the same group. The other two friends were in one group. They keep on blaming themselves that they had done very bad just now, couldn't speak and hang in the middle when finished the short conversation.

Seriously PS and I were also nervous and worry about our result as we are not good in English too. But at least we won't so 'humble' to praise our friends done not bad in the short conversation and keep blaming ourselves.

We definitely won't believe in what they praised us. Because we knew our standard. Just hope got a B at least.

The grade was shown outside Miss Thum's room on Thursday. First, we searched our own name, next partner's name. Then only we searched our friends' name. What the hell they got B and we got C+!

Why???
At least we able to read a passage when in the class, but one of my friend not able to do that.
She always hang when reading a passage even a statement.
Why she managed to get B?

Also, we able to score A, that is at least 32 out of 40 marks for our grammar test while she just got C+. Why she managed to get B?

Luckily I score A for grammar test.
Now, I just wish my journal's score don't too bad.
Or else I worry that I would fail coursework!
IF she got better score than me for the journal's score, I would definitely out of control, seriously!
Because her journals quite short, just wrote a few lines! Some more keep asking us to translate from Chinese to English for her when doing the journal in class.

I don't want to fail coursework and repeat English class my dear!
5 English class for diploma ya!
Now just started the first class in TAR College!
I don't want to repeat la!!!
>.<

How to improve English???
Why my English so suck?!
Why I always cannot do well in English?
Why my reaction on the spot so bad and keep nervous?

Post on 30th July
1226

Lonely without U

2010-07-24T22:06:00.002+08:00

Attended Leo Club of Georgetown Mutiara's school service project at Convent Pulau Tikus today. Nearly forgot the time, just going around 1.40pm ;P

Definitely, I was late. Late a little bit la...Luckily arrived on time, still sempat to captured group photo. LOL.

Cleaning storeroom and washrooms today. Without you, I was so lonely. So, I just did my job without talking a lot.

One hour more ago, we have finished all the job. They went to *don't know where is it* to have a drink. Too bad my daddy didn't know where is it. Thus, I couldn't go. Honestly a bit bit unhappy. Why I always get constraint by *many factors*. Actually feel that I quite waste, like basket case over there.

Anyway, back also good to me. As I have 4 assignments and 1 presentation next week! Damn.
Since I will be busy during this weekend, so back home better.

Continue doing my recycle assignment which has done half in the morning.
sigh*
What a busy weekend.
Microecons assignment, Quantitative Studies assignment, Log Book, Recycle assignment and Introduction to Accounting presentation, all are waiting for me!

And, very very very angry and disappointed with my daddy and grandma. They argued my award. Said it's a dog! ==! And said couldn't see the dog's face but a big mouth, not good looking at all! ==! After my mummy said it's a award and with my big name over there, my daddy asked me whether am I going to hang it on wall. My grandma straight disagree and said don't hang on living room, which is beside my brother's graduation photo, hang it on bedroom if want to hang! ==! Suak!

Tomorrow RCC meeting. I haven't tell my daddy yet >.<
Some more go half of the day.
Luckily you will be going tomorrow, or else I will be lonely again!
Pei Yong, you must go ya!

Post on 24th July
2247

不孝女

2010-06-19T19:34:00.008+08:00

今天是星期日，要去‘非常麻烦’的宿舍讨论presentation的事情。大约一点半，老爸和我就出门了。他驾摩托载我去。我妹妹则去她朋友家。大家各有节目。

一路上，我竟然还会良心发现。我突然觉得心酸。心酸谁呢？心酸我老爸。从我家去拉曼其实并非近距离，要老爸载我去，忽然替老爸觉得委屈了起来。出门前还特意催促老爸今天最好是快点去看车子。心想：越是催老爸买车就越是成为不孝女。因为家庭状况并不是很允许我在这时刻买车。一个只有一千多两千块月薪的老爸再加上一千多月薪的老妈子要负担起三个还在念书的兄妹，年长的奶奶，家庭费用，日常开销，屋租等等。尤其是我们三兄妹的开支。哥哥去了吉隆坡继续advance diploma，每月要汇RM600给他。妹妹则是零用钱和补习费。我呢？一个月RM200的零用钱。哪有其余的钱去供我的车子呢？不但如此，他还经常向婆婆，老妈子，甚至是我借钱，更糟的是有时他还向妹妹借钱。当他向婆婆和老妈子借钱时，婆婆和老妈子常常都会讲他甚至骂他。看在眼里，有时我真的觉得很委屈。

我不禁想起以前的事情。想着想着，越是觉得自己很不孝，因为我从来没有孝顺过他，甚至我还有点讨厌他。不是有点，而是非常。我也不懂，就是没有家庭缘。我与家人无法沟通，全家我只跟妹妹有话聊。说代沟又有点说不上来，哥哥与我只相差两岁，不可能是代沟了吧？我们俩是住在同一个屋檐下却已几年没说话的兄妹。

朋友劝我与哥哥说话，与老爸说话。她每次看老爸来载我们时，一路在车上我都没与老爸说话，只有有事要老爸载时才会与他讲话，而且老爸在车上自言自语说得滔滔不绝时，我总是让他一个人讲，完全都不理睬他。她说坐在后座隐约看到我老爸那已长满鱼尾纹的在笑的眼角，心里感到很心酸。她还说听到我老爸说我有事才会找老爸，没事就没理老爸时更加心酸。过后朋友问我，听到这番话时心里有何感受，别告诉她没感受。老实说，我真的没感受，因为老爸常常都回说这番话的，听到习惯了。朋友这说老爸就是有这种想法才会常常说，老爸是希望我们不要这样对他。不知道，也许是，也许不是，我不是老爸。

以前，我真的完全没感觉。经过朋友的‘启发，点化’，我想这就是我今天为什么会感到心酸。坐在摩托后座的我，眼泪不禁滑过眼眶。

老爸走山路，快出山时突然下起雨来。真是天公不作美，雨越下越大，倾盆大雨，只好靠近拉曼学院的一棵树下避雨。这时同组的朋友的妈妈驾车载她去，看到我在路旁就顺便载我去。过后我就上了朋友的车，而老爸就。。。我也不懂他是继续避雨呢？还是冒雨回家？

大约五点二十五分，便发了个信息给老妈子叫老爸可以来载我了。由于来时下雨的缘故，所以老爸没载到我去宿舍。现在我也无法叫老爸来宿舍载我，只好走回学院等。算盘打得精，大约五点五十分才开始走。一到楼下，还在下雨。糟糕！我冒雨走回学院是无所谓，可是麻将纸呢？不能让它湿啊。只好又回到楼上借雨伞。难免会拖到些许时间，而且‘非常麻烦’的宿舍离学院很远叻~他的宿舍可是离学院最远的宿舍。晕~

与另一个组员一起撑着她的雨伞一起走出来。其实她是特意帮我撑伞，特意陪我走出来，不然她只是走回自己的宿舍而已，现在要她陪我走到学院后又走回自己的宿舍，实在过意不去。走到学院的出口门时，隐约看到老爸的身影。我还妄想他看到我后会过来载我，我就停在一棵树下等。谁知他没有来，所以我还得走过去。港走几步路，他来了，我又停下来。

第一句话：叫你在前门等，谁叫你在后门等？！
不爽！他已提高音量，我也不客气地回应：我才刚走出来！谁说我在后门等？！
第二句：打电话来了就应该走出来等了嘛！我在这里等了你十分钟！
更加不爽！不顾形象，当场大骂：我下来了看到下雨又上去借雨伞所以耽误到时间！
第三句：我来这里至少要三十分钟的时间，不要告诉我三十分钟你走不出来！
超级不爽！我不回应了！他赢了！根本不想与沟通不到的人说话！
说得我好像特地的，岂有此理！
要不是因为他是我老爸，我老早就出口成‘脏’了！

在回家路上，我们‘沟通’了一阵子。
例如：我已等了你十分钟，再没看到你我就要回了，
我回了你打电话回家也没用，我不回再来了，
等到guard也问我在等谁，
要麻烦人家载就要出来等人而不是让人家等你。。。。。。
我实在无法让他一个人独骂，我也是觉得很委屈的，我也是人好不好？！
立即大骂：你买车给我，我就不会再叫你载！
之后，一大堆道理和理由来了。说什么我以为买车很容易吗，不用供吗，不用找吗，我就只会想快点买车，到时买到不好的车，买到贵的车的时候呢？！
老叻~又被冤枉了！我最讨厌被冤枉了!

刚才还为他感到心酸，现在不必了！无法沟通就是无法沟通，甚至不想与他沟通。我真的很讨厌他！我们永远都不会好好地说超过三句话，第三句后一定会不自觉地把声量调大。算了吧~不要再逼我跟他说话了，我们之间没话题聊。

笔于2010年6月30日
2359

PTPTN

2010-06-16T00:27:00.007+08:00

被老爸骂，
说我临时抱佛脚，不早点拿出来。
我说要给妹妹的朋友的爸爸签时，臭老爸明明就说可以。
现在妹妹的朋友的爸爸不能帮我了才说是我的错！

知道有位议员今天（星期二）有在时，
就马上今晚要拿去签名了。
王八蛋的，
今天我就是要上课上到5点，
巴士6点才开车，
回到家又要赶着去做工。

一边吃饭一边签名，
我该签的都签了。
轮到臭老爸！
给他签了过后就告诉他哪里是要给议员签的。
一切交待清楚了才放心去做工。
当然，我是迟到的.

实在不放心，打了通电话回去。
臭老爸竟然说我填错了，因为那边的人告诉他签错位子了。
老实说，我很错愕。
我已经很小心很小心了，我哪敢随便？
这可是很大件事叻！

想了想，
再打电话回去确定那人是不是用了涂改液来改掉我的签名。
我的天啊！！！！！！！！！！
晴天霹雳！！！！！！！！！！
真的用涂改液！！！！
妈的！
这种这么重要的表格竟然给我用涂改液！！！
这下子糟糕了，借钱没望了！

回到家，我实在控制不了自己！
那人涂掉的那个签名就是本人签的！！！！！！！
我心想就算那人眼睛瞎也好，老爸不认得我的签名也好，但也应该分得清楚自己的签名是怎样的！
真的没看过这样的人！
老爸给的理由是当时没带眼镜去，所以看不清楚。
岂有此理！
我快气死了！！！
老爸就恼羞成怒，
反口说我去做工不要跟他一起去签！
现在有错误了才骂！

跟老爸大吵一顿。
老爸坚持那人说没关系的，所以坚持不再去找议员签名一次！
好！
这是老爸说的！
算！！！

笔于2010年6月19日
1930

喜悲交集

2010-06-12T15:58:00.004+08:00

昨天刚收到The Star Education Fund的信。
坦白说，很高兴，
因为等了很久。
但
我现在才知道奖学金是需要担保人的！
不可以是父母而且还要两个！
更离谱的是还要复印身份证！
天哪！
星期一或星期二就要交了。
我临时间怎么找到呢？！

下个星期一或星期二要交The Star Education Fund,
下个星期五或星期六要交PTPTN。

一个要找两个担保人；
一个要找一个证明人。

为什么每次都遇到学校假期？
要照校长证明也不能！
证明人还好，
最担心还是担保人。
试问有谁愿意当担保人呢？

感到很无助。
我现在的状况是
病人，正在赶着功课和assignment的人，下个星期有小考的人，下个星期要交The Star Education Fund和PTPTN的人！

今天，
打算找阿姨和姨丈当我的担保人。
真的很不幸的是他们去了吉隆坡！
真的好衰！

特地去到阿姨家却失望地回来。
很难堪！
阿姨家只剩外公一个人。
外公已是八十岁老人家了，
当我们要回时，
他问道为什么这么早回，
我突然感到很心酸。
他的声音听起来很孤单。

回到家，
看到GTM获得了好多奖。
我真的很替他们感到开心。
因为其实我很想去的。
话虽如此，
我的心情是喜悲交集，
在我觉得无助的时候听到好消息，
我该如何面对？
我该做出什么样的反应呢？

笔于2010年6月12日
1624

Should I or Shouldn't I?

2010-06-04T00:23:00.003+08:00

Confusing!

Actually nothing to confuse,
just...
I am worrying.

Should I or Shouldn't I?

My eye is swelling.
sobbing

What to do?

Should I tell my dad?
or Shouldn't tell my dad?

My eyes have been swelled few months!

Before that I don't care about it.
I was still wearing contact lens everyday.

But
my friend told me that
she has a friend got a very likely case as me.
Her eye was swelled,
at first she didn't care about it also.
After she checked by a doctor,
doctor told her to do operation.

I am actually worrying
IF I same case as her,
and I have to do operation,
my dad won't get me a car this year.
I believe!

Maybe I shouldn't be so stupid.
Stupid also know eye is the most important.
But I wish to have a car.
This is a very rare and precious opportunity right now.
I should grab it!

In other side of my mind,
it tell me that
Maybe my eyes is not that serious,
Maybe my case is totally different as hers.
Maybe there's just because of I keep wearing contact lens although it has been swelled.

Besides this,
IF I have to do operation,
how do I catch up with my studied?

Should I or shouldn't I?

I hope that
I am different case with her.
I hope that
my eyes will be getting better,
as now I don't wear contact lens but change to wear spectacle.

Post on 4th June
0100

Who is my brother?

2010-05-30T00:30:00.002+08:00

Why does everyone interested on who is my brother?
>.<

It that important?

Sorry to those who interested on who is my brother and my brother's name.

Apologise.
because I won't tell.

If yours insist to know,
answer is still same.
If yours angry about that,
I also no idea.

Post on 30th May
0035

Mouth so pain

2010-05-28T14:42:00.002+08:00

Happy Wesak to readers =)

Weather is so0o0o HOT nowadays!
My mouth so pain!
Talking, chatting, gossiping,
eating, drinking,
studying, etc
are ruining my mouth!
Help~
T.T

Post on 28th May
1450

人也是你，鬼也是你

2010-05-23T22:21:00.003+08:00

抱歉，这篇文章说不出好话。
可以跳过。

人也是你，鬼也是你。

之前
是我一直在烦恼学院和交通的问题，
你一直说我在自讨苦吃，自找麻烦。
说什么大不了就搭巴士。

现在
因为搭巴士需要很早醒，
你说你是个很贪睡的人，
要你每天这样早醒，你会很累。
我很羡慕你有一个这样疼你的妈妈。
她看见你这样会心疼，
所以要你去租房子。
你也同意了。
刚上学的第一个礼拜，
你就丢了一个炸弹给我。
你告诉我，
大多数下个星期你就要去租房子了。
之后，
找不到朋友一起租，
你再告诉我你不租了，
要跟我一起上学了。
我承认
这两个礼拜真的辛苦你哥哥了，
要他特地驾车载我们去上课，
有时候时间不一样还要等来等去很麻烦。
我知道如果没有我的话，
你哥就只是驾摩托载你去，
方便很多。
第三个礼拜来临了，
你告诉我你生病了，
可能没去上课。
你生病也是没办法的，我知道。
你叫我自己想办法去上课，
这点我了解。
过后你再告诉我
可能会去上课了，
因为你吃药了。
我很高兴。
但我知道你也可能不跟我一起去上课了，
因为你一字不提。
我厚脸皮地问你，
是不是不跟我一起去上课和回家了，
你隔了好久，
才回复我两个字，‘是的’
我的心真的淡了。
算了。

笔于2010年5月23日
2307

First week of studied

2010-05-23T14:17:00.002+08:00

First week of study,
not bad...

Quantitative Studies isn't teach by Lim Min Yik anymore
sob sob*

English Language learn about phonetic.
Oh no~
TYL teach quite fast.
sob sob*

Need to find transportation everyday.
The day before only get the transportation for tomorrow.
What a pity life!

LS asked me to get myself transportation for next week,
because she is sick!
Oh my god~
PS, I need u!
Please come back as soon as possible ya!!!

Post on 23rd May
1424

Second day

2010-05-18T23:46:00.002+08:00

RM25 is to be taken by this week for English Language book
=(
so far, I paid by myself.
I mean paid by my cash
T.T

9am started to register for co-cu
We thought we was early.
Yet,
8 something already full of heads at Club House
=(
Faster line up and register for table tennis.
I hope that it would be a good sport for me =)

Opened an Public Bank account and filled in the PTPTN Loan information.
BLUR~
hopefully I fill with the correct info...

Post on 19th May
0018

First day to study

2010-05-18T23:43:00.002+08:00

I had spent RM30 for first day
=(
buying 3 books of study text cost RM30.

Post on 18th May
2345

Orientation Week Part 2

2010-05-15T11:34:00.002+08:00

First day of Orientation Week
is on 10th of May,
that is the first day to college.
Nervous~

So bad..
I go with LS and her brother,
they 8.20am only go...
Is sempat to arrive there
but shirt don't have SS, S and M size already,
just left L size.
Ishhh!
Hate that huge size shirt!!!

I have distributed to group Penguin from SOT.
Away from all of my friends.
But anyway,
make new friends with my group members.
The first day of Orientation Week is a little bit bored.
And still have to work at night >.<

Second day of Orientation Week
''Fresh & Fit'' exercise in the early morning.
Aerobic ==
Afternoon have a briefing on
Save the Earth with Eco Enzyme.
After briefing,
Each group done our enzyme ourselves.
For the Variety Show,
I cant attend the practice at night
because I have to work at night >.<

Third day of Orientation Week
Sport Competition today.
I am participating in table tennis.
Actually I also don't know how to play,
anyway just try my best =]
Compare to other sport like
basketball and football,
table tennis is consider easier sport!
XDDD
Maybe because of luck,
I am get in semi final of the competition of table tennis.
Just 3 people participate in semi final =p
Haha!
Really surprise!
After that, briefing by Administrative staff
on Administrative Office, Co-Curriculum and Loan.
Totally blur with the steps of PTPTN Loan.
I have take part in the preparation of Variety Show from 7.30pm to 11.15pm,
So failed to attend Leo Club meeting and work.

Forth day of Orientation Week
Semi final of Variety Show today.
Everyone have gone through this semi final
so there is nothing to surprise XD
What that really happy is
our group success to take part in final of Variety Show!
16 group out of 39 group are taken part in final.
After that, briefing by Administrative Staff on
Library, Administrative Office, Bursary, Counseling and Timetable.
Telematch in the afternoon.
Run here run there under the hot Sun.
LOL
Near the end of Telematch,
totally high..
dance chicken dance and penguin dance xDDD
As our group get in the final of Variety Show,
so we have to stay back til night to innovate our performance for the final round.
But very sorry that
I cant make it because have to work.
Too sudden to ask permission from boss also.

Fifth day of Orientation Week
This is the last day of Orientation Week
and Final of Variety Show.
Go to college early in the morning to learn our performance.
Luckily just change a little bit in my part.
Still
a little bit mistake when performing >.<
Anyway
have pass.
At least we have the opportunity to go on the stage of CA,
we should proud of it,
not everyone can perform on the stage of CA.
Hahah.
Our group win The Best Name Tag!
For sure,
this is the contribution of our leader, Lemon!
She made each one of us a penguin by sewing and pasting!
Thank you to our Penguin Mama!~

Post on 15th May
1357

Orientation Week

2010-05-15T00:37:00.002+08:00

I have started my college life last Monday, 10th of May.
It was turned me a big changes.

It was started Orientation Week on the first week of May.
I was from group Penguin!
My leader is a pretty lady,
she is also a Prom Queen last year,
Lemon! =)

Our group's slogan XD
苹果是青色，
香蕉是黄色，
是青色啊是黄色，
Penguin, Penguin最出色！
&
台湾依琳是舞王，
香港朝伟是戏王，
Rahmat Penguin是国王！

I was from group SOT, too
as Penguin is belong to group SOT.

I am proud that I am a member of Group Penguin
although SOT lost the champion =)

The Orientation week is exhausted!
I very enjoyed with it!
This memories will be keeping in my mind always.

Further more will be uploaded next post.
Stay tuned.

Post on 15th May
0100

开学

2010-05-09T00:34:00.002+08:00

五个月前，还在为SPM而奋斗；
四个月前，还在为工作而打拼；
三个月前，还在为血拼而努力；
两个月前，还在为升学而着急；
一个月前，还在为学院而烦恼。

一眨眼，光阴似剑，
时光的飞逝
让我感到恐惧。
地球不为任何人而停止转动，
时间也不为任何人而静止一分钟。
人类往往都在跟时间比赛，
而我
却让时间一分一秒地流走。
实在太不应该。

星期一就要开学了，
开始我的新的旅程，
人生的另一个里程碑。
我又长大了！
迈向新的目标，新的希望，新的阶段。

然则，
我怯场了。

害怕新的环境，
新的人，事物，
新的一切一切。

也许艾说得对，
我还小吗？
这些事也需要害怕吗？
>.<

好担心与心和欣不同班。
当我说起这个时，
大家都会说，‘可以交新的朋友呀！’
其实，
我是担心我们是一起上课的，
要是我们不同班的话，
我们就不能一起搭公车来上学了。

要申请换班什么的，
实在麻烦。

算了，
不想这么多了。
希望我
开学顺利，
读书开心！

笔于2010年5月9日
0100

Sagittarius Girl

2010-05-02T23:55:00.003+08:00

乐观与忧愁：
射手座人的内心不是外表看上去那么乐观的，因为喜欢看的远，容易担忧的事情也就多，在他们的字典里，即使现在好，也不一定代表未来好，有时候很多人觉得很好的一个工作或一个伴侣，他们很轻易的就会放弃掉，可能只是因为一个毫不起眼的小原因。
所以，这样的外在表现，就让人们觉得他们不喜欢被某件事情或某个人束缚住，追求自由的，没有压力的感觉。

现实：
常说射手座是追求梦想的人，但往往忽略了他们现实的一面，算计起来不会比处女座差哦，只是更高明更隐藏罢了。射手座人的梦想是必须建立在现实的基础上的，一般他们很少谈及自己的梦想，而是实际的去做一些向梦想靠拢的事情。如果可以借巧力完成的事情，决不会多花一点工夫。所以有时候射手座也容易给人耍小聪明的感觉。可是，不得不承认他们完成的还满不错。也许终其一生，他们都在考虑怎么巧妙的做一些事情，花最少的精力去达到最好的效果。
所以，很多射手座看上去让人们会觉得很懒，但是其实他们的大脑可没有停下过思考现实的事情。

拒绝低俗：
几乎所有的射手座内心都是骄傲的，其程度绝不亚于狮子座。只不过他们不会显现在脸上，外在的表现总是随和的，恰当的。可是内在有着极强的自尊心，敏感也情绪化。因为射手座人心中是骄傲的，所以他们拒绝低俗，不喜欢任何俗气的、粗鲁的事或人。如果可以，他们希望一切有关的事物，都是优雅的、高尚的，值得品味的。
而真正能让他们觉得值得交朋友或谈恋爱的人是很少的，虽然表面上他们是很随和的。

多情：
很多人说射手座多情，尤其是男性。其实在射手座人的心目中，对于爱情确实有理想化的倾向，和他们谈恋爱，是一件高难度的事情。他们非常讨厌俗气的人，所以你不能很物质或喜欢谈钱，但是他们又很现实，所以你不能一文不名，各方面也必须有一定的实力。
物质与精神，你必须平衡的刚刚好，才让他们觉得你值得去爱。或者，你有足够的神秘感，可以让他们不知道你的缺点在哪里，而盲目的爱你。一般，当然是没有完美无缺的人的，所以，可能象金牛座这样永远会让射手感觉捉摸不透的闷闷的人，会非常吸引他们；或者象双子那样，足够机智，懂得察言观色，捕捉他们的情绪，才会让他们感觉到爱情的甜蜜。
一般射手的感情模式是，第一阶段，你们还不熟悉，他（她）爱上了你，非常热情。第二阶段，你们逐渐熟悉，而他（她）开始龟毛，整天挑剔你的毛病，无论是背地里还是当面。如果你有幸通过他（她）的挑剔过程，基本挑剔出的毛病为零或者你把缺点保密的非常好；那么进入第三阶段，他们就又是忠诚和热情的爱人了。
但是基本能通过第二阶段的人非常少，所以有了射手多情一说。其实射手对恋人的挑剔，是源于对爱情的挑剔，对丧失自由感的恐惧。
射手座人的人生，往往是幸运的，因为他们是聪慧的、明朗的、通透的。
与众不同，也许是他们终生追求的梦想，希望每一个射手人，可以找到他们的梦想！　　

人人都说射手座是感情的骗子，对爱情不尊重，只追求片刻的快感，是花心与冲满欲望的象征。
朋友们…你们了解射手座最真实的一面吗？
射手座是大孩子，天真与善良，遇到爱情时，可能让人感觉不认真，付出的比谁都少。
可是，知道吗？
射手座很想爱，却也很怕爱！
刚开始他们只是慢慢的付出，谨慎的爱，好怕自己会受伤。
可是在一句一句的爱，一天一天的相处下，射手座把带刺的防备丢掉，开始不顾一切的去爱他们所爱的人，在别人眼中，只是射手座为了达到某种目的而作的行动。
可射手座不介意，他会在自己幸福的想象中陶醉，希望对方能感受自己的爱，想对方觉得与自己一齐是幸福的。
在射手座爱上了一个人，他会把自己放到最后。有苦自己承担，可能会因为吵了一场小架而不开心，却也是最快认错，无论谁的错，他们都会包容，知道吗？
射手座会因为深爱一个人而原谅他的背叛，会因为你的一句话付出很多。他们爱玩，在玩的同时，也希望把那一份好心情带给你，射手座是乐观的。　

人们总觉得射手座的世界很快乐，可是呢？
射手座难过时没有人知道，他不想让别人可怜自己，射手座不坚强，可是很善良。在你难过时哄你开心，让你有依靠，分手后，他会哭者去想属于你们俩幸福的回忆，也不想爱的人因为同情而勉强和他一齐。
他比谁都希望自己爱的人快乐幸福，却常常忽略了自己，全身都是伤也笑着告诉你，我很好不用担心。　　
在所有人看到他的笑容以为他没事，却不知道失恋对射手座有多大伤害，华丽的外表下有一颗脆弱的需要别人了解和安慰的心。知道嘛？
你的一点关心，心思细腻的射手座会记得你对他的好，把自己的爱毫无保留的送给你，射手座是不被了解的，可他们不会怨谁。他们会傻傻的认为，让我承担吧，别让别人也受到伤害。
所以，不要让快乐的射手座痛苦，别让他们最有魅力的笑容成为掩饰痛苦的伪装，认真爱射手座。你会知道射手座的爱，是充满泪水的…

在面子书上，
在朋友的邀请下，
玩了这个星座的心理测验。
测了之后觉得超准的！

我不懂如何表达自己，
而它帮我完完整整地诠释了出来！

朋友，不妨试一试！
真的蛮准的~

笔于2010年5月3日
0128

Fattier?

2010-05-02T01:15:00.002+08:00

Eating at Thai Station.
After watched Ice Kacang Puppy Love at Prangin Mall with Renny.

Do I turn fattier?
Some of my friends said I look fattier in this photo
>.<

Post on 2rd May
0120

Grabbed my Scholarship

2010-04-30T01:09:00.004+08:00

Yeah!!!
Finally I grab The Star Education Fund successfully!!!
Happy~
^^

Before that I still worried much about that.
Blamed myself that
why didn't tell them about my family financial status and
I am working part time job now
to show that I am really poor
and my parent cannot afford that.
But now,
seem it's useless
and no need to worry anymore!
I have grabbed it in my hand!
Yeeesssss!!!

Here
I would like to take this opportunity to thanks my friends
who has help me in applying this scholarship
and
help me think out the script.

Kar Heim, who are my best friend and she help me a lot!
Pei yong, who help me think about my script after our lunch time and choose a formal blouse for me..
Jo Lynn, who help me think about the script with Pei Yong at Prangin.
Si Sheng, who advice me and support me few questions might ask in interview.
Jesyca, who advice and support me.
Ryan, who support me the questions that might ask.
Kevin, who help me on the preparations of interview.
Madam Ooi, who is my BM tuition teacher guided me on the questions too.

Hmm, apologize if miss out your name.
Remind me ya!
Lastly, I am glad to have them as my friends!
Thanks You!

Post on 30th April
0128

Interview

2010-04-29T01:51:00.002+08:00

Pass my interview for The Star Education Fund.
Damn nervous. Super panic.

I was the last people who arrived at head office.
Not I late ya, it was before 10am.
=p
Two girls and s guy were waiting there.
I realized that there was only four person were come to interview.

When I get in the room,
I loss my nervous and panic.
Just the brain left blank
although three of the interviewer were nice and friendly enough
==

Gosh*
I have not started to tell on my family financial status,
the interviewer already changed a topic!!!
I not yet said how poor am I !!!
Oh no~

And,
they asked me about my brother >.<
Why...
I am very proud to have such a clever brother,
yet, I am very worry to tell other about him.
Because he is too clever if compare with me =(
No choice.
I shall told them.
He's a scholarship holder to study Accounting in TAR College
and will be continue his advance diploma in KL next month.
He's managed to mantain his TARC Scholarship til the end of diploma.
He did quite well in studied
as he ever get CGPA 3.92.

sigh*
Was that good or bad in telling these?
Just lower my standard.
sob sob*

Answering the questions with suck English and grammer.
Mind totally blank =(
Yet
still have to pretend nothing and calm!
>.<

Forgot to ask them about the date of result released.
Damn.
Forgot to ask such a important question!
Why do I always be like this?
Hate it!*

Hope that I can grab this scholarship in my hand!!!

First time to drive after I pass my driving test!!!
Nothing to happy actually
since my driving skills is so...
>.<
My brother asked me to drive back home from TAR College!
and this was a raining day,
rain heavily!!!
Oh my god~
How dare he was!
On the way back home,
keep blaming by him
and
he keep helping me to control the stering...
blamed me drive too inside,
scared I crush other car,
didn't see the side mirror before turn,
bla bla bla...

At the traffic light in front of Union High School,
nearly accident!
I didn't notice that the traffic had turned red,
I thought it was still green.
At last,
break accidentally and immediately!
==

Know from my sister,
my brother told my parent that
felt scary while sitting in the car driven by me
>.<

Post on 29th April
0245

Building Bridges

2010-04-25T23:06:00.002+08:00

Leo Club of George Town Mutiara
ROAR!!!

I am going to Building Bridges service project.
7.57am arrived Komtar Walk,
the gather place.

Soon,
I get blamed by someone.
>.<

Anyway,
just forget it.

Have fun together at there
and
for sure,
done my duties as well.
Damn tired.
Exhausted.
It's really a meaningful project!
GTM, huat ar!!!
XD

Would like to take some photo for a nice memories.
Yet,
get blamed again.
==!!!

After this service project,
follow by a cooking competition
Wok for Love.
Leos from Swinburne,
Danny Lai and Darrel,
Leos of GTM
Elisa and Janet are taking part as one team.

Pei Yong, Jo Lynn and I
keep disappearing during the activity.
Going to Prangin Mall and Pacific
to search for my formal blouse
that needed to wear it to my interview.

I know.
They don't like much.
However,
I need to buy it.
What to do?
>.<

And also one thing.
After lunch from Prangin Mall,
I just said the truth
(maybe they don't think as what I think.)
that
join them for dinner most possibility would til late.
I really don't mean anything.
Just saying what I think in my mind.
Maybe I should think twice before saying something
>.<
Apologize.

Anyhow,
I am back to the activity after I bought my blouse.
And
stay til 5.30+pm.

Badly god is playing me.
Raining heavily.
==!
I don't think my dad can pick me back.

Feel free and interested on newspaper today.
check it out happily!
So sad.
I am not there.
That time I was helping a lion to capture photos.
T.T

In conclusion,
feel appreciate to join this service project.
It's meaningful, fun and interesting!
ROAR!

Photos will be uploaded at Facebook.

Post on 26th April
0012

The Star Education Fund

2010-04-23T12:36:00.002+08:00

Yeah~
I have received a call from TAR College
to interview for The Star Education Fund !!!

Happy^^
+
Surprise^^

But...
worry too~

What would they ask?
How would I answer?
Could I answer those questions?

My English not that good,
cant speak fluently!
OMG!
How to do?!?!

Oh no,
forget to ask the caller that
what should bring along?
and
what to wear?

I think formal wear...
I don't think I have a nice formal wear
>.<

Damn.
Don't know where is the place to interview.
The caller make me blur blur with her talk.
I know where is the student office,
opposite student office will be....?
Inside there will be...?
Where exactly is it?
@@

Anyone know what question they normally would ask?
Mind to share?
Thanks a lot
and
much appreciated!

Post on 23rd April
1320

真丢脸

2010-04-09T17:39:00.002+08:00

昨天晚上，
去做工时遇到真丢脸的事 ==

竟然要把我去一班一班介绍给学生认识！
我的天啊~

我只不过做个小小的管理员，
需要做到这样吗？
==

超不爽！

还要背中一至中五的时间表呢！
再加上老师们的学历！
惨~
多久没有背书了 ==

笔于2010年4月9日
1750

遗憾？后悔？

2010-04-08T01:14:00.002+08:00

人生是充满遗憾和后悔吗？
什么是遗憾？
什么是后悔？

商科比较优的我选择读理科，
大家都问我会不会后悔。
我的答案是不后悔，
学习怎么可以说后悔呢？
对吧？=)

直到SPM成绩放榜的时候，
我又开始怀疑我自己了，
究竟我是真的不后悔吗？

因为读理科，
使我的成绩变得不够理想。
我相信
要是我读商科的话，
我能够考到至少7个A的成绩。
我有信心！
成绩出炉时，
还是有朋友问我有没有后悔，
我想
这不是后悔，
应该是遗憾吧~

再来，
从小就有着志愿当一名会计师的我，
竟然会放弃读会计。
朋友们都赞成我读会计，
甚至老爸也难得同意，
最后我竟然把从小到大的志愿给放弃。

对我来说，
梦想不能当饭吃，
所以我选择现实。
眼看着那些拿会计学的朋友们即将读会计，
心里很难过。
眼睁睁看着读会计的机会在我眼前流失，
心里更是难堪。

老实说，
现在我的心还会为会计发痒，
无可奈何我已选择了金融，
我会好好地读下去，
考出好成绩来。

目前
这个选择是我人生中最大的遗憾！

笔于2010年4月8日
0206

Work

2010-04-06T00:57:00.003+08:00

2/4/10 Friday start to work at SIM Tuition Centre.
Then today work again...

My job is about....
admin..
something like admin.
Record attendance of student and teachers, meet and talk with parent, listen to call in...

Today, 5/4/10
too tired..
I took a nap at afternoon.
Suddenly mobile phone rang.
It was called by SIM.
Electric get cut by someone else,
no electric so have to cancel tuition classes.

So, my working time were move earlier =)
6pm started til 8.30pm

Badly I just wake up..
still steam steam @@
Mr Yeoh also noticed that I had just wake up =p

Post on 6th April
0108

Massage Shop

2010-03-31T23:58:00.007+08:00

Actually I quite busy today.
First, followed Carmen to work.
She is working as a cashier at a massage shop.
She found me to replace her when she off day.
One week just one day.
I think I could be work so I told her that I most probably could help her.
Thus, she tough me how to work today.
But actually I didn't tell my dad anything about this job yet.

Anyway, I suppose back at 4pm.
As I have to rush back home to have a interview.
Work as a clerk at SIM Tuition Center.
Just at night.
This job is also inform by the clerk,
she asked me before whether can replace her at the night or not,
just for 2 hours,
because she wanna back earlier...to tend her child i think =p
I had promised her before also as I feel the job is quite okay for me.

Okay stop, back to the previous topic first.
Due to the kacao kacao from the boss and those workers there,
I have to back later.
Darn it.
Luckily, at last I back at 4.05pm.
To be honest,
I didn't know where is the location of this massage shop.
I just followed Carmen, her friend fetch us today.
Really missing on the way!
I remembered Carmen had told me that just walk to 7-eleven,
there has a bus station in front of the 7-eleven.
I walked along the road and then turned right.
On the way, I saw Oriental Hotel.
Oh, that's Oriental.
Later I'll be there to attend my friend's birthday party.
Didn't bother so much, keep on my way to 7-eleven.
My god, don't have bus station ya!
Where is the bus station???
No idea.
Back to massage shop again to ask Carmen as I am really a 路痴!
Walked again from massage shop to search for the bus station.
Got two 7-eleven there la ==
Carmen didn't tell me,
just said I must see a 7-eleven after turned right.

Get on the bus,
received a message from the clerk.
Interview had changed to tomorrow and asked me what time I can make it.
I thought I have to rush back home,
now no need to do so anymore.
Shit man!
Tomorrow I have to follow Carmen and learn again.
I just could make it at night. =(

Reached home.
Rest a while.
Steven is going to pick me up at 7.30pm.
Soon, my dad was back from work.
I would like to ask him to fetch me back from massage shop tomorrow.
Thus, I just described the location.
p/s: We were at living room right now!
Once I said it's somewhere near Oriental,
he straight away stopped me to talk forward.
And started blame..blame...blame...
Help!
Everyone know I gonna work at massage shop >.< style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">
I just hate one niam me!
He totally didn't know what am i talking to my dad,
just see my dad suddenly stopped me with loud voice,
then keep asking what happened.
Please la, I just answered for him to blame me?
Am I stupid?! Suck*
My grandma even worse!
She blamed me that
I want to work at this kind of place and this kind of money right now?
And I am still a student already wanna work easier job?
Even worse,
she asked me no need to continue study anymore if wanna work at there!
This kind of job no need to employ an educated person!
Fu*k*

Everyone is blaming me.
Said that massage shop isn't a good working place, won't just be a cashier at there so easy, that area is a bad area for a student and don't allow me to work at there.
Oh my God,
what are they thinking of me right now?
what's my impression inside their heart and mind?
Shit man!
Darn it.
That shop is really a massage shop,
not a illegal shop and do any illegal business such as chicken business.
Whatever I say, they just don't believe.
Blamed me some more how much I know from the shop.
They must be kind to me at the beginning.
OK, fine!
I told Carmen that I couldn't work.
I broke the promises. Zzz.
She was pek cek-ing with my answer, I know.
But what to do, she must accepted that.
Sorry, Carmen!

Because of this fu*king stuff,
I couldn't attend my friend's birthday party.
I broke the promises again!
Suck*
Luckily I didn't tell my dad that
the birthday party is hold at Oriental. ==
Anyhow,
Happy Birthday to Steven!
and
Sorry!

Now,
I just hope that
my grandma's mouth can shut up!
She is always like to share some news with neighbours!
I damn hate this kind of action!

Post on 1st April
0218

知己

2010-03-25T10:14:00.002+08:00

之前，
我真的很辛苦。
整个人都无精打彩的，
消瘦了些。
为了那些一大堆的烦恼，
没胃口，吃不安，睡不着。

前几天，
就在我彷徨以及茫然时，
我向我的一位好朋友倾诉，
收到她这样的一封信息。

我打算公开她的信息在这与关心我的朋友们分享。
我想她应该不会介意吧~

以下是她的信息内容：
其实嘛，这段时间，看见你压力挺大，说真的，我不知道该怎么帮忙。。。也不能明确了解你的辛苦。我有试试想过你的处境，必读学院却又突然借不到助学金，要想尽办法借结果很多麻烦，接二连三的障碍，加上没有什么人帮得上忙，无助和无奈，换作是我也可能会发飙。其实我想你这段时间一个人吞了些眼泪吧？这种情况，我们总是必须经历过的。当我们越大，烦恼就越多，一边学习一边挣扎，成长是要经过痛苦的。但是，往往艰难的环境才能塑造出高素质的坚毅力。很多时候，遇到很不乐观的事情，切记先要冷静，然后，往好的方面想。就像你目前的情况，虽然逼你忙碌地做很多东西，可是从中你得了经验，你更理解如何处理这些事，更独立，同时学习如何与人相处，虽然他们不对，所以藉此你又学习忍让和原谅。其实我们遇到的每个局面，好或坏，都是一个成长的机会。与其选择消极，何不选择乐观？积极，就是力量！我本身时常也很挣扎苦恼，很多事，一定要亲自经过，很多泪，一定要亲自流过。这并不代表我们是孤独的，而是每个人都必须经过的个人成长过程。宜琳，认识你酱久，似乎没什么见你真正开心过。人生许多阶段等着你去面对，我认识的你，不是位轻言放弃的人。累时，稍微歇息，难受时，别阻止眼泪。这些之后，再给自己个微笑，因为你经过苦难，信心和毅力又升级了！宜琳，有什么我帮得到的，我一定帮。你要加油哦！=)
备注：我没删改任何一个字噢。

这封信息实在把我给感动！
当时我真的很无助，
突然间收到她这样的一封信息，
虽然信息长度媲美一段文章，
但
这是真心诚意以及感动的，
把我隐藏已久的泪水再也忍不住地划过脸颊。
其实当我看到
‘其实我想你这段时间一个人吞了些眼泪吧？’
这句时，
眼眶里的眼泪就掉了下来。
因为，这是真的。

从来没有一个人跟我说过这样的话。
她
是第一位。
第一位把我的心声给形容得这么贴切，
第一位告诉我从来没见我真正开心过。
我还以为大家都会觉得我很开心，很乐观。
回想起来，
我好像真的不曾真正开心过。

我想
认识她
是我前辈子修来的福气。
我会珍惜这位知己的！

嘉欣，
谢谢你！

笔于2010年3月25日
1117

成功！

2010-03-24T23:39:00.002+08:00

终于
今天交上了报名表格。
成功！

开心~
但麻烦到了我的朋友，
要他载我们到大老远。
实在不好意思~
因为还要去载我的朋友呢！

最后，
成功交上了！

不懂是不是我带衰他，
他车的钥匙竟然卡着不能转！
方向盘也转不了！
把我们给吓惨了！

幸好，
我们还是安全以及顺利地抵达我们各自的家。

感恩~
谢谢我那位朋友！
如果没有他的帮忙，
我们就没办法成功交上我们的报名表格。
我会记得这份人情的，
决定请他吃一餐。
=）

笔于2010年3月25
0101

祝我好运

2010-03-24T09:05:00.002+08:00

朋友们，
祝我好运吧~

今天下午我会和朋友再去一次拉曼
去交报名表格。
真的真的真的
希望
能够没有问题的！
愿我和朋友成功交上报名表格！

笔于2010年3月24日
0921

衰到贴地

2010-03-23T23:26:00.002+08:00

真是有够衰的！

下午好不容易找到一位朋友能载我去一趟拉曼，
谁知
问题又来了！

就这么刚好我找不到正本的报生纸！

打电话到妈咪的工厂，
跟着妈咪的指示，
还是找不到！

看吧~
我真的衰到掉渣！

笔于2010年3月24日
0043

就这么刚好

2010-03-23T12:35:00.005+08:00

到底是为什么最近我在走衰运？
究竟我犯到什么？
要我做什么才能不要再这样衰？

真的！
我真的很衰！
衰爆了！
从来没有这样衰过！
衰到贴地！

神啊，救救我呀！
我不想再衰下去。。。

想听听我的衰事吗？
即无聊又无趣，
再加上我懒惰写太长。。。
在这就简短缩写吧~

今年年初，
就烦做工的问题，
再来就烦成绩的问题，
现在烦着继续升学的问题。

做工的问题，
很多，
之前有交待过了，
这里不想多谈。

成绩的问题，
就是SPM咯。
考到这样的成绩，
心灰意冷~

最后升学的问题，
这是一个大问题！
考到这样的成绩要升学是个大问题！
备注：是要达到我的目标，我要的选择啦~

就这么刚好少一科A，丢了奖学金！
就这么刚好今年没有给优惠！
就这么刚好没有人愿意和我读一样科系！
就这么刚好没人可以载我去上学！
就这么刚好我以为已把所有问题都解决时朋友突然说不能载！
就这么刚好遇到那些不知所谓的counselors！
就这么刚好妈咪复印我的身份证有出错！
就这么刚好忘了给我爸签上他的大名！
就这么刚好去了三次却没有任何人告诉我要带正本！
就这么刚好已交表格的朋友忘记告诉我要带正本！

每遇到一次衰的就这么刚好后，
我都必须想办法解决。
成功解决时，
另一个就这么刚好又出现。
到底要我怎么做啊？
告诉我就行了呀，
不需要来这样玩我吧？！
在挑战本人的耐性吗？
那我告诉你，
你赢了！

妈的，
世界上真的有这么多这样刚好的事吗？
怎么不看有
就这么刚好有朋友和我读一样科系？
就这么刚好她们能载我去学校？
就这么刚好成功交上报名表格不需要我再去第五次？
我只要求这三个的就这么刚好而已。。。
为什么偏偏却丢给我那十个烂的就这么刚好？
以三个换十个，
不过分吧？

是我犯到了什么吗？
为什么问题总在不断地出现？
从年初就开始了！
究竟我这段衰运，
几时才能够划上句点？

笔于2010年3月23日
1330

问题一篓篓

2010-03-14T17:31:00.002+08:00

到目前，
问题一大堆还不能解决！

为什么我这样衰？！？！
到底为什么？

就这么衰之少一个A？！
就这么衰今年开始没有扣给那些有哥哥姐姐在读拉曼的人？！
就这么衰没人愿意跟我一起读？！
就这么衰我老爸没钱买一辆车给我？！

还有多少问题？？？
还有多少问题等着我去解决？？？

之前我还以为我已解决了所有问题，
谁知问题现在才出现！

之前约定好一起读和她载我去的朋友
昨天放我鸽子了！

Margaret又说她妈突然要她读中六了！

明恩又迟迟不确定要读什么，
一下又说还没决定要读中六还是拉曼！

啊！
捅我一刀算了！
好过现在生不如死！

笔于2010年3月14日
1753

心烦意乱

2010-03-14T17:00:00.003+08:00

大家都不相信我，
大家都坚持要读会计。

到底谁可以跟我一起读？

很烦！！！

如果真的没人要跟我读一样，
我就要跟朋友了。

真的要我读会计吗？
我真的读不起啦！
我哥12科A的人都说读得很辛苦了，
难道我真的要读吗？
我怎么可能读得起？

真可怜！
我就像个东西一样，
要随着他人！

我真的不想步我哥的后程啦！

笔于2010年3月14日
1722

难受

2010-03-14T16:35:00.003+08:00

现在这种状况
比死还难受！

很烦！
很烦！
很烦！

有没有一种简单又直接的方法来解决？
不要让我再这样烦！

笔于2010年3月14日
1654

忽视的感觉

2010-03-13T16:12:00.002+08:00

6A's
让我又爱又恨
我曾很爱过它，
但也是它让我终日以泪洗脸。

是它，
让我无地自容；
是它，
让我没有自信；
是它，
让我抬不起头；
是它，
让我没面目见人。

就是它，
让大家拿放大镜来看我；
就是它，
让大家在看我笑话。

为什么？

我无法见人，
我抬不起头来。
就算在家里也是一样！

除了妹妹，
我谁都无法面对。

为什么不能让我考获7A's？
一科之差，
害得我好惨！
就一科之差，
害我丢了奖学金！

为什么级任老师要告诉我我考获7A's？
为什么要让我白开心一场？
难道看到我空欢喜一场会很开心吗？

为什么我不是读商科？
要是我读商科，我一定能考获7A's！
一些我比她们好些的统统都考获7A's！
为什么老爸要我读商科？

怪了全世界的人，
其实最该怪的人是自己！

妈的，
为什么我这样笨？！
为什么我这样衰？！
为什么要用放大镜来看我？！
为什么我哥这样聪明？！

笔于2010年3月13日
1650

乐极生悲

2010-03-12T19:00:00.002+08:00

拿了成绩后就抱病出去玩。
终于，
乐极生悲！

朋友们，
不要再恭喜我了！
我不是考获7科A！
我无法获得scholarship！
拉曼不接受LCCI！

妈的，
老娘差一个A！

老爸也完全不为我的成绩感到欣慰！
*可怜
他说我的成绩普通而已。

我曾经还为我的成绩感到很高兴。
*失望

烂成绩！
烂命运！
烂人一个！

笔于2010年3月12日
1919

放榜

2010-03-12T11:08:00.002+08:00

终于等到SPM成绩放榜的一天！
老实说，
我竟然一点紧张的感觉也没有！
心情就像江里的水，平平稳稳地，
完全没有狂风大浪，
很奇怪。
照理说这不是我该有的情绪。
原来紧张兮兮的我居然也有安稳的时刻！

签了名，等着级任老师分派成绩。
‘一个，两个，三个，四个，五个，六个。。。。。。’
*停顿
靠，别告诉我只获得六个A's叻！
幸好，还有最下角的LCCI获得1分！
1分就是A！
‘。。。。。。七个！’ 级任老师笑笑地看着我说。

耶！~
我有scholarship了！

要是我没有拿会计，
想必我只获得5科A，
一科会计让我有两个A。

LCCI，算吧？
否则我只有6科A而已耶！
可是没有scholarship的叻！
希望算吧！
不然，我恨惨自己了！

笔于2010年3月12日
1135

Fu*king Shoepoint

2010-03-08T22:54:00.002+08:00

I already worry about that when changing our uniform.
It state that
sales assistant must work at least 5 months,
or else RM30 will be charged per uniform.
I dare not to sign my signature when I was seeing these statement.
I just gonna work till March,
RM90 will be charged on 3 of the uniforms!

Maybe lao yi realized my worried.
She told me that
is okay if I don't work at least 5 months.
Just tell them earlier if I wanna resign.

Now?
end up with... ...?

Stingy aunt deduct this RM90 from my commission!

Readers,
please!
Don't ever try to work at Shoepoint!
It's a suck shop!

Post on 8th March
2323

Sick

2010-03-08T00:10:00.004+08:00

keep hanging out with friends lately.
My dad started to amaran me.
Next Wednesday still need to back late
because of meeting.
LOL

Anyway,
I sick now.
sore throat and cough,
feel the hotness all over my body,
but I cooled by surrounding.
This is what called in Hokkian, oi gua
right?
LOL

Post on 8th March
0017

SPM result

2010-03-05T17:28:00.003+08:00

Result of SPM 2009 will release on next Thursday,
11st March.

Death date, death time.

sigh~

How many A's would I get?
Would I get 7A's?
keep thinking about this stupid question >.<
wth

I'll commit suicide if I just get 6A's!
==

Just been TAR College to ask some info.
Don't know how to choose my future!
Banking & Finance?
or Finance & Investment?
Which one is the better?
Which one is easier to get a standard job?
Question marks is running over my mind.

The biggest problem is
not my interest should I think first.
But I shall to think about the fee and transport!
Tanjung Bungah,
how do I go to college everyday?
My dad is now don't have enough money to get me a car.
Thus, my decision is still depend on my friends!
They are same like me.
I just received the answer,
'don't know yet' , 'still thinking' , 'not sure'
bla bla bla... ...

Post on 5th March
1803

Resign

2010-03-02T01:40:00.002+08:00

Yeah~
Have been stop working..
today is my last day!

Finally,
can get away from these heartless people and shop!

One month earlier has to inform...
ya, today is the first of March,
I inform boss about my resignation today,
what's wrong???
Aunt blame me somemore why do I inform today, should be inform earlier.
wtf
I know what she blame for.
She worry that there is no body wanna work!
She say that now after CNY is less people seek for a job,
hard to hire people.
Remember!
She is a two-face person.
She is just smiling while talking to me.
And say that
my salary will just remain RM750
because she thought that I will be working long term.
Lame.

No doubt,
once she hire a person,
she just quickly tell me that
I just work for today,
because shoepoint has just hire a malay girl today,
she will be replace me.
Good~
By the way,
I would like to pray for that malay girl....
oh no~
one more victim...
pity~

Anyway
I am happy to leave!
xDDD
I just miss some friends there...
umm
will go and visit them when I free ya!
Friends,
don't forget me ya~

I have been absent for several activities that done by Leo Club of GTM,
will try to attend it.
Leo Club Of Georgetown Mutiara,
I'm coming back.
But I need to say that,
I still need transport
although I had pass my driving test
T.T

Lastly,
wish my friends good luck!
And Ying will get a better job soon.
=)

Post on 2nd March
0200

Pass

2010-02-24T15:42:00.003+08:00

Woohoo~
Pass my driving test!

Waiting at there
long long time...
as I am in the 3rd round.
So...
just wait...
Badly my friends, Meng Ean and Lai Chin
are in the 2nd round.

Sitting at there,
waiting and waiting.
Know some new friends there
as I am alone.
=)

Take test inside Cemerlang before going out to road.
Oh my God!
I am so lucky
as a low clutch car is waiting for me
==
Why do I so lucky everytime???
The only 2 cars with low clutch that my teacher had told me
1896 and 1161
are waiting for me everytime!
Darn it.

Anyway,
the important thing is
I has pass it!!!
17/20
Although get scold from those shit dark skin man.
Besides that,
I has lost one of the copy paper of my driving result =p

Post on 24th Feb
1618

Scary

2010-02-23T23:00:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow will be my driving test!!!
scary~~~
worrying~~~

I think I will fail...
anyway
I hope, wish and pray
will not get low clutch car
during my driving test!

Good Luck!~

Post on 23rd Feb
2303

22/02/2010

2010-02-22T23:43:00.002+08:00

22/02/2010
不开心

时间表上明明写着我今天在Prangin Mall做，
老狐狸说我今天应该在新世界。

原本还想卧在新世界快一个星期了，
终于可以在Prangin Mall做，
结果呢
大失所望。

难得老妈子今天没工能在我区做工，
到头来
我还是得走去新世界。

气爆了！

下个星期更糟糕！
整整一个星期在新世界做。
岂有此理！

我没答应要stay在新世界做工耶，
而且stay有stay的工资。
想必
他们又想耍奸诈了！

我想
又是要开口说话的时候了，
否则
我又要被欺负了！！！

笔于2010年2月22日
2354

Sixth Time of Car Practical

2010-02-20T22:12:00.002+08:00

Go for 6th time of car practical today.
wake up at 6 o'clock...
sleepy~

7am
i get in the car.
I am not the driver ya
because surrounding still not that clear and bright.

After reached Cemerlang,
drive to Road A
and follow by Road B.

So lucky~
Never stop engine today for the whole process.
Yeah~
First time!

This time is my second last car practical.
Oh no~
will be testing on next Wednesday.
Worrying~

Post on 20th Feb
2255

Increase Salary

2010-02-19T22:14:00.002+08:00

I decide to stop working soon.
Just work til end of March.

Too bad.
Aunt will increase my salary on March.
zZz.

Post on 19th Feb
2310

王八蛋

2010-02-16T23:48:00.004+08:00

王八蛋的，臭老爸不让我明天去婷的生日。
明天有工又怎样？
后天有工那又怎样？
要去的人是我，做工的人也是我，
他凭什么管我？
说难听点过分点，
我不是在征求他的同意,我可以直接就去不需要问他！
我不是不去做工而去生日会，
我还特地做完工后才去呢！
岂有此理！
说什么生日年年都有，今年不去没关系，跟她说我有工不能去。。。
妈的！
现在是我自己要去的！
婷跟我是从中一就认识了，还曾经是好好好朋友。

试过两天不睡觉也照常去学校上课的我，
区区这样会顶不住吗？
不要说关心我什么的，
我不需要也不要他这种关心！
我根本不把它放在眼里！
不稀罕！
我拒绝！
可以吗？！

笔于2010年2月17日
0000

1 8 9

2010-02-11T00:46:00.003+08:00

1 8 9
what are the meaning of these three numbers?
LOL

I like these three numbers.
Its was really meaningful to me,
last time.
Now,
I just like the numbers.

My contact number have these three numbers,
my email address have these three numbers
include MSN, Facebook, Blogger and Friendster too.

To my surprise,
my L license too!
LOL

So coincidence.
My driving teacher told me that
1896 is one of the low clutch car,
better avoid it.

I thought the car with the number 1896 is a good numbers
since I like these numbers.
Yet,
its started my nightmare.

I had told to drive this car for my pre-test.
Oh no~
Help!!!

Engine stopped few times during pre-test.
sob sob
But still pass.
I found that
I can't driving this car when taking real driving test.
Or else
I'll be very very very cham!
Although I like these numbers,
I shall face to reality.

Post on 11st Feb
0100

Pre-test

2010-02-10T00:47:00.003+08:00

09/02/2010 Tuesday
Going to pre-test...
after that straight away go to work...
Tiring~

My god,
yesterday slept at 1 something,
5am can't wake up today.
LOL
After closed my alarm clock,
sleep till 6.06am only wake up.
Then going to work straightly
till 10pm
Sleepy~

Post on 11st Feb
0056

08/02/2010

2010-02-09T00:06:00.002+08:00

Today,
unhappy.

Out many shoes for others outlets.
Surely,
this is not the reason of me for being unhappy today.

As what I said earlier,
have outed many shoes to others outlets,
we separate to take the shoes from stock room,
but just I take the shoes to upstairs, 6th floor.
>.<
After back from 6th floor,
I check those shoes from others outlets again.
=='

Did not serve many customers today actually...
Luckily have served two pairs of guy shoes...
I remembered the young guy who is buying Body Glove shoe,
he is very funny,
and his friends, too.
xDDD
Thanks them for giving us a happy short period
and reduce stress.

Then,
what's the reason of being unhappy today?
Emm..
actually is because of....
my suck supervisor!
We all busy for those shoes
but she keep serving customers.
For sure,
she is the top sales for today.
Blame me work slowly...
kanasai

Night,
my dad pick me back.
He ask me about 30th night.
Darn it.
Suck supervisor arranged my time til 7pm...
My dad don't allow, the latest he allow is just 6pm.
Tomorrow have to talk with them...
cham
who should I talk to?
Suck old lady sure don't allow I back at 6pm...
what if I talk to boss's son, Ivan?
Is it possible?
Don't know, don't know, don't know

Post on 09th Feb
0052

Fifth Time of Car Practical

2010-02-09T00:00:00.004+08:00

07/02/2010
going to 5th time of car practical
After that,
going to work...
Tired

>.<

Many customers today...
sigh~
no idea,
have to continue and concentrate in working.
Since there are many customers today,
Ivan be the cashier.
p/s: Just a short period of time.
He also blur blur...
press wrong promoter code for me..

T.T
Done more than one thousands for today,
but not exactly know the real sale
as didn't know whether
anyone got press wrong my promoter code or not...

Post on 09th Feb
0005

Fierce? Scary?

2010-02-06T00:23:00.002+08:00

Why everyone said that
I look fierce and scary?
Why?
Really?
May I know the reason?
I wonder to know!

Not just one people said so...
T.T

Maybe because of my skin is darker?
Maybe because of my eyes too...scary?

sigh~
I don't feel better
although I have been heard many people saying that
for many years.
I thought I have used to it.
sob sob

Post on 06th Feb
0112

Purse Is Bleeding

2010-02-04T00:45:00.003+08:00

Today, off day.
Today would be the last off day before Chinese New Year.
So, I shall took it seriously.

Went to hair saloon which I had booked the time to dye hair.
Highlight my hair with brown colour =)

Night,
went to Farlim night market which I didn't go for long long time ago.
Spent about one hundred at there
T.T
bleeding....
I mean my purse.

Post on 04 Feb
0108

Forth Time of Car Practical

2010-02-03T15:15:00.002+08:00

Just back from forth time of car practical.
Umm..
so far so good with that =)
Luckily~
This time is just counted as third time actually
because the previous time is uncounted...
Maybe I just have 3 or 4 times to do my car practical...
Hope that I'll done it well and nicely.
Ganbateh!

Post on 03rd Feb
1523

Talk with boss

2010-02-02T00:47:00.002+08:00

continue with previous post,
I talked to boss's wife today.
Because I didn't understand about my salary yesterday,
I asked that bad supervisor, she asked me to talk with aunt (boss's wife) myself.
Okay, so today I asked myself.

Today, I opened shop.
>.<
I didn't know how to open, they din't teach me yet...
Old lady (bad supervisor) just asked Ying told me yesterday,
Ying just briefly taught me...
Really shit...
didn't know how to open...
called Ying twice, she on the sport taught me.
waste my credit again...sigh~

Few minutes later, aunt came to take sales.
I quickly asked her about my salary and time.
p/s: I had told my dad yesterday how did aunt and old lady done to me. My dad asked me to ask aunt myself about the salary and time.

Kanasai!
Aunt said that we take half of the salary every half month, so my salary with increase RM50 was started on 15th...But I have already worked 3 weeks in January at New World Park!!!
Means that I rugi the salary for one week at New World Park!!!
Fine, this one week I just considered it free for them!
I continued with my time, timetable.
I told her that my dad not come to fetch me every night, I need to take rapid bus back home when my dad not free to fetch me.
She said kindly that just tell Celine what the latest time I can.
Okay, settled these two important things.

I knew that aunt and old lady are bad people, they are same type of people.
Everytime ask old lady some problem, she always say this is aunt's decision.
But aunt always say just tell Celine, she will settle for us.
Suck!!!

Post on 02 Feb
0113

Bad Supervisor

2010-01-31T01:08:00.004+08:00

My supervisor, bad supervisor, Celine Teoh,
she has been rampas my customer today.
She is not the first time to rampas my customers.
Not the first time!!!
Actually I not really care about my commission
because I have transfer to New World Park work for few days in one week,
oh my godness,
New World Park really less customers...
no need to think about commission anymore,
sure can't hit the target.
So, fine.
What I hate was she rampas 3 customers of mine!!!
Suck!
Total about RM250!!!
Fu*k!

Today, my first customer had bought 3 pairs of shoes which over one hundred,
she did not sell any shoe yet at that time.
I did not know whether she was not feeling good with that or not,
she asked me to swept the floor.
Okay, I swept for her.
I stopped to serve any customer and concentrated to swept the floor.

I continue to work after I finished sweeping floor.
I stood beside a customer, she was looking for her daughter's shoe,
badly she did not buy it.
Her father looked at the scandal,
she went to serve this old man.
He was suppose belong to mine, my customer.
p/s: Normally we serve the family of any customer or customer's friends.
Oh dear~
This old man has bought a scandal over RM150!!!
This was belong to mine!!!
She rampas my rich customer!!!
Darn it.

After that, asked me to change smaller notes with car park.
Okay, I change for her.
I went to SB and 6th floor to change it.
really waste my time actually.

I saw my customers when I was coming back.
Arrrr!!!!
She was serving my customers!!!
My customers told me that they would come back later to buy.
I was not at there when they were coming back.
Shit man!~
My customers bought about one hundred arrrr!!!
Not feeling good with that, this one hundred suppose was mine!

Besides rampas my customer, she still arranged my timetable till late.
We can work till 10pm but she cannot, the latest is just 9.45pm.
My first week in New World Park was back at 8.30pm,
kanasai,
she delayed it to 9pm at the second time,
not yet enough,
she somemore delayed it to 9.15pm for next week!
Ying was right, she has told me before about her bad things.
I couldn't just keep quiet,
or else I'll be bully by her!
I took the timetable and asked her why is it become late and late.
First, she would like to pretend couldn't listen to my voice.
Yet, she was unsuccessful because I got time,
I just stood beside her and waited her finished reading newspaper.
Maybe she knew that this method couldn't work,
so she took over the timetable from my hand and asked me that where is it got late.
really fu*k!
I rise my volume and asked her why is it till 9.15pm...
wow~she was always right!
She asked me back where is it got late, just 15 minutes more.
Grrrr!!!
Okay, fine!
15 minutes more is not consider late.
I believe that she will delayed to 9.30pm, that time I'll not to keep quiet anymore!

Celine Teoh, you please remember what you've done.
I'll remember it, all!
And I hope tomorrow you'll pay me the correct salary (with that increase RM50 for New World Park).

Post on 31st Jan
0202

Third Time Car Practical

2010-01-30T00:04:00.002+08:00

went to 3rd time car practical today.
Delay my time...
teacher just come at 10 o'clock.
He let me drive to Cemerlang...
T_T
Nervous, panic
After reached Cemerlang,
I just drive one round.
Suddenly he said that car got some problem.
So?
Just back home with another car.
I just learn about 1 hour today.
Luckily he said today not counted as one time car practical.

Post on 30th Jan
0020

E and O test

2010-01-28T23:39:00.002+08:00

T_T
Oh my god
I failed O test
Opportunity test

Post on 28th Jan
2344

27012010

2010-01-27T23:46:00.004+08:00

又被骂了
呜呜~

虽然我的工作是有时间表的
但有些事很难预料的嘛！

谁知道在放工前几分钟会有客人呢？
又有谁知道那位客人很烦呢？

啊！
超讨厌！

眼看就快放工了，
谁知道王八蛋的客人进来
要求东，要求西
还我被老爸骂！
妈的
我最讨厌老爸念经了
简直就是折磨我

还有，
我的supervisor不是个好人！
我看得出来她是个双面人，
加上员工说的一些事，
我开始替自己担心了！

笔于2010年1月28日
0043

24012010

2010-01-24T23:46:00.002+08:00

今天的心情
起伏不定
时而好，时而坏
像云霄飞车一样

一开始
心情冲向低层
笑不出来

突然又好像没那么糟了
升向大约第五层

但很快的
又冲向下了

啊~
我也不懂怎样形容
就这样啦~

笔于2010年1月24日
2359

Second Time Car practical

2010-01-20T10:08:00.001+08:00

Just back from car practical...
sigh~
engine stopped for several time again...
sad~

Post on 20th Jan
1010

Thanks Renny

2010-01-19T23:42:00.002+08:00

Today,
work at New World Park again.

Ying not there today,
while Renny at there...
Umm...
I don't recognize her
worrying
T.T

First day and first time to meet her.
She teach me a lot.
Emm
should be say that
boss had asked her to teach me.
I won't learn it at Prangin
because Celine at there.

Anyway,
thanks, Renny!

Post on 19th Jan
2350

Shoes

2010-01-19T23:35:00.003+08:00

I should not take cash,
yet I prefer cash.

Once I get money on my hand,
my mind...
Oh no~
Keep buying, buying and still buying.

Bought 3 shoes for new year.
Oh my godness~
how many pairs of leg do I have?

I should stop for buying shoe anymore,
clothes turn =)

Left no much money,
dad had lent one hundred from me,
will be returning me next month...

Good also la~
at least no much cash on hand,
hand wont gatai...

Post on 19th Jan
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